Finding Balance out of Chaos

I decided to change my desk around, originally because the A/C vent was freezing me out!  My dear partner helped me move things around. I solved that situation. But what I also did was make room for my art supply caddy!  There is also plenty of room to move my keyboard out of the way and take a sketch pad out.

I then turn my chair around and I’m at my design table. I’m a happy camper today! I find that as i reorganize my office, I’m finding the energy open up to create easier.

The past year, I have been having visions of drawing something. I don’t have the tools or the know-how to do what I saw.  However, I have ordered all the types of pens and brushes I need.    I’m going to go to learn something this week.  The internet has unlimited resources to choose from. I’m ready to play!

Where Did June and July Go?

Hi,

I have had a rough couple of months and seemed like I was frozen in place.  I just decided to try my old go-to when stressed. Valerian Root. It seems to be helping me. Grief is a funny beast. I could not believe that I really sat on that couch for 2 months.   I did things as I sat there. Including reading and crafts. I forgive myself.  For unless you have gone through losing a child. You can not understand.  I was doing better in the beginning. But the reality of the loss smacked me head-on.  I’m coming out of the fog for now and back on here.  Miss all of you with all my heart!

Jumping back in the game quicker.

I had a rough weekend. My partner passed a kidney stones, ouch! He required attention.  I didn’t mind. But I realized I forgot me.

I didn’t post my food, nor eat healthy meals. I will always be there for other people, I’ll keep doing it. The poor guy was in pain, I was very concerned. But I forgot to take care of me.

I’d love to find out a way to jump out of the moment to take care of me, consistently.  Mainly, because there will always be something happening. I get through the stress, then i want to eat anything not tied down.

The key is not settling on forgetting ourselves, no matter what is thrown in our path!  It is about settling on being the best we can! You keep striving, you get it!

 

Grieving is not for faint at heart!

For most part, I am doing ok. I put it in my mind that both my sons, are in Spirit’s hands. Then switch you holy sh#t, I lost my two only sons.

What I try to do is switch to writing, designing and focus on eating healthy for lowering my blood sugar. The key is getting off the couch.

It is a constant battle. For 3 days, I saw my self slip into sadness, forget to exercise, make unhealthy food choices, forget my vitamins…

My self talk starts, give yourself a break, it is less than 2 months and move to time to live, enough. The key is not staying in the deep depth of sadness too long, catch yourself. Put on a smile and remind yourself, you are going to be just fine.

How our emotions can weaken us

If there is ever doubt how the emotions work effect us when we are stressed. You might think a little before you let yourself react whether it is on the inside or outside.

  • Anger = Liver
  • Fear = Kidney
  • Grief = Lung
  • Stress = Heart and Brain
  • Worry = Stomach

Deep breathing as you concentrate on these areas can help with getting you back on track.