Posted in Chaya's Journey, Insights, Self Determination

The Self is Dangerous

My instinct was to change the gender on the above quote. But then it wouldn’t be a quote!

It has been a month now since just one more friend left me. This one didn’t like my way of thinking after taking years and many hours of my time, that I know that we both enjoyed. We supported each other, checked in on each other and in one night. it was a two way street. Then poof she flipped a switch out of no where. It certainly something that had nothing to do with me. People can certainly take time in life to retrospect, but no need to try destroy people in order to push them away. In the past I would have owned what is not mine. But I can see in this year along. I so clearly see this is not my circus. I sending only healing light her way.

Since I was a little girl, I never really felt I fit in with the regiment of religion or groups. I seemed to have run into the types that love to want to control. When they realize they can’t… they go in a major destruction mode. I’ve seen this pattern. I may fall a little bit, because I didn’t realize what hit me! I get up fast and I get stronger! There is always the person that said I didn’t get up fast enough. I have strong faith and there was always an instictual twinge within me saying….Nah! I always beat to my own drum. Everytime I go against my grain and try to fit in, I am the one that pays the price. As I got older, I really get tired of the trying. It is about taking advantage of my kindness…then using it against me. Some said along the way if they were me they would do it better. But guess what they are not me and it did what works for me. May not get done as fast as one would like. The end result was the main thing.

This doesn’t mean that I should isolate, or be mean to people. It means spend more quality time with me. Reflect, speak and listen to spirt. As I keep speaking my truth, I step into my truth. All the things people wanted of me, droped by your wayside, it simply didn’t fit! Just maybe all those years I’ve been feeding my emotions so I can fit in places that I really didn’t want to be. Did society really require my attendance? I just didn’t need to be there. Each second, moment and day is a new beginning to start fresh. If by me living by my own integrity is shining my light to bright. So be it.

Posted in Chaya's Journey, motivation, Overcoming Emotions

Self-Respect, just because you deserve it!

“Respect your efforts, respect yourself. Self-respect leads to self-discipline. When you have both firmly under your belt, that’s real power”…. Clint Eastwood

With each day, I am finding that I am getting more disciplined. I am owning what issues I need to address and do not own the ones that are none of my business. Sometimes there is a fine line between the two. I have to take a deep breathe then say… That has nothing to do with me. I found with age. I’m getting better with that.

At times when you are vulnerable, we tend to own what others think we should. They are very persistant. It is important to take time to shake off what doesn’t belong to us. There are a lot of psychic vampires that are around us. Those are the ones that don’t like to see you succeed. Don’t like you see you happy. They will go out of the way to bring you down.

As above, so below. When things are happening here on earth, assume there are plenty of energy particles floating around that you don’t see, that can affect you. When I sometimes describe a psychic vampire, I say that it is like you walk into a meeting with a suit of velcro on…and when you walk out of there you have all these energy balls stuck to you. These are the energies of the ones throwing negative thoughts your way. They have their own anger but they want you to own them. They don’t want them but who better than you. You are vulnerable, you will accept them and they don’t have to anymore.

You don’t have to be in a vulnerable spot to be hit by this energy. You can be happy and your life going well. The key is noticing this is what is going on in the moment. Catch it and return it back to the sender. Visualize putting up a mirror and the worst words are going back to them. Don’t own it. If you are an empath. It hurts you worst. Many times you just accept it because of fear. Ask yourself fear of what? Is it my fear?

There are items, amulets and talisman with different symbols that can protect you. Black tourmaline is a good protection. Many cultures have various power items you can use. Many times it is harder when you are around family and very close friends. Your guard is down and they are the last ones you would suspect. Zap …they got you. Each time you catch it, as it is happening. You get stronger. This is self-respect. Because you do deserve it. No one can have power over you unless you hand it to them. Love yourself today

Posted in motivation, Overcoming Emotions, Uncategorized

Unnecessary Anxiety

There is a hurricane coming! Meteorologist is in high gear on TV, and they are soooo excited! People all around are at the stores buying up all the water and supplies. Well, I can really freak out or not.  First of all, they have no clue what direction it is going. I am watching all the people panic. Many Floridians already know this. Some still panic.

I check to see if I had batteries and all the things you need for the go-bag. I got food. I filled the water bottles. Which I have not developed the list yet. It is Thursday, It is not coming until Monday and that is if it hits here. Well ran out of batteries, ordered from Amazon, here by tomorrow. The task is done.

Worry makes us old! There are so many times we waste so much time with unnecessary anxiety. Don’t get me wrong, I lived through 2 horrifying experiences in 2004 with 10 each without electric. Not to mention the level 5 coming at us 5 years ago that didn’t hit our area that bad. I don’t want to go through this again. Yes, I am nervous. But we have time. I have the stuff in the house.

It is not hitting to Sunday, Monday or maybe Tuesday. So how many days are we going to put our body into turmoil? We do this to ourselves, not just through hurricanes. Anxiety is so harmful to us. We don’t need a pill. We can do this!  It is important at this time to stop and pause, pace yourself, take a few deep breaths. Make your list. You just might be surprised that you already have most of the items and your go-to bag is full. If the hurricane doesn’t even come your way. You put yourself through an unnecessary unliving hell for nothing. Now Breathe!

Posted in Insights, Self Determination, Wisdom

How Do I Know All This?

Over the past 45 years, I have learned so much.  I didn’t limit myself and there was always something just waiting for me to absorb the information. I love to learn  (not test). I stood on the shoulders of giants in the metaphysical and natural healing fields.  

My first introduction to healing was with Louise Hay books.  You Can Heal Your Life.  Her principles are on cause and effect. That we create our own illness, but we can create our wellness too.  I liked this concept and I adapted it to my own core principles throughout the rest of my life.  Over the years, as I learned new tools, I found myself going back to these principles.  

These learning tools are just the way I followed my path.  Not saying this is the way you should. No one can tell you that you should do anything.  This is what helped me.  My favorite part of Louise Hay’s book is she had a chart in the back of her book. That listed the ailment and then the cause. And a positive affirmation with the intention of healing the concern. 

After all these years what do I do with all this information? There are many giants in this industry that I studied and I learned from.  I will be sharing them with you and you can enjoy your own learning journey.    Share it with you! 

Posted in Charts, Energy Healing, Uncategorized

Healing is at our fingertips!!!!

I have stood on the shoulders of giants, as I have learned through the years.  My main interest for years is finding books, articles, and websites that would help me find ways In which I can heal myself.  We hold such power to do that. Much is right at our fingertips! Our fingers are jumper cables and we can balance our bodies all by ourselves.  There are so many modalities. This is a good place to start.

As I find interesting information that I feel that would work. I am happy to pass it on to you.  I am not necessarily trying to promote one modality or another.  This is how I found things to work for me. If you like the websites, enjoy!

The first link is Jin Shin Jitsu, Inc.  The main purpose of this method is self-healing. She has many books which I purchased if you want to pursue this for yourself.

https://jsjinc.net/index.php

Below is a handy article that I found on the process.

 

How our emotions can weaken us

If there is ever doubt how the emotions work effect us when we are stressed. You might think a little before you let yourself react whether it is on the inside or outside.

  • Anger = Liver
  • Fear = Kidney
  • Grief = Lung
  • Stress = Heart and Brain
  • Worry = Stomach

Deep breathing as you concentrate on these areas can help with getting you back on track.

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Happy Valentine’s Day

Before one falls in love with another individual. It is important to fall in love with yourself unconditionally first. No one thing or person can fill that void.

This is nothing new news. It is about staying in tune with that love that is important. Because If we do. There is no reason anyone could disappoint us. Because Love does conquer all and especially negativity.

Time to look in the mirror and say…I love you!

Posted in Self Determination

Stay Determined…

So many of us have made plans, goals, and by the next day. They are forgotten. Distractions are brutal. How many have set out to take a regimen of vitamins, or exercise or a life plan for eating? Might do it for a few days, then forget the next.

I decided I’m not going to be hard on myself. I am just going to keep picking myself up and doing what I have to do. I already have seen the results of forgetting about myself. I want to live and enjoy life.

I have started going back to my training in time management. Have beeping going off all times of the day to remind me to exercise, eat the right foods and take my vitamins. Do other work I am wanting to do. When you check things off for the day and complete things. It creates energy. When you don’t it depletes it. You can take the item you did not do, and post it the next day, then check it off for today for completion. It is important that we see a sense of accomplishment. I invite anyone to just join me and post any thoughts on how you stay determined.

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If it is going to be, it is up to me!

So many people doubted that I would ever have done half of what I have proven that I could do. When they got done with their judgment of me, I would continue on my own downward spiral of self-pity. Even though On the outside, I would be strong. Then I realized how many would still be in bed after the events that I have endured. There haven’t been too many types of trauma that have not found its way to challenge me. Always end up on my two feet.

The first day of the year I was faced with the news of my son’s passing. I made a decision at that moment that I was going to choose to live. I spent 6 years stuffing my grief and sorrows with food. I don’t drink or drug. I started taking care of myself but like so many other times I have put a roadblock up. Many times it is not me. It is people or circumstances.

Death of a child is not insignificant by any means. But the choice to self-sabotage is. All these issues become overwhelming and trying to be strong. I stuff my feelings. Every time, there is an excuse and I’m the one who pays dearly. Before my son got sick this year at end of November. I made a decision that I had to forgive myself for all that happened around my first son’s death. Somethings were just out of my control. His Angel date is on the 5th of December. I didn’t want to be sad anymore and wanted to celebrate his life. I wanted to enjoy the holidays this year.

No sooner did I make this statement when I heard my second son took ill. I forgot all the promises I made to myself and my sugar numbers went off the charts. My younger son did not want me to tell anyone about his illness. I felt I was all alone on this one. He didn’t answer phones. It wasn’t an easy time. It was stressful. This lasted a month of not taking care of me in spite of what was going on. I worked so hard on my food plan before this.

The day I had to fly up to see my son, I had plenty of time to talk to me. I decided that I was not going to spend a lot of years again grieving and sabotaging myself. I was going to live. When I got up to Connecticut, I walked more during that time and at the cemetery and walking up and down steps, it became the beginning of my exercise program. I actually felt better. I didn’t eat the hoards of food that was sent to the house.

This past month I had my moments that I was sad. I know that God/Spirit has my boys and they are in good hands, out of pain and full of love. They want me to be happy and healthy. They must have served their purpose. I was in my own way. I know I am not alone on this journey. This is why I’m writing this. I am living for me. When I have a difficult time doing it for me I will do it for the kids. Regardless, If I am going to heal it is up to me and nobody else.

I have actually felt a shift in how I feel and act. I am finding I am not as quick to go off my food plan. I’m exercising. Even if it is a little bit. My heart is light instead of heavy. I talk to the kids all the time. I know they are around and intuitively, I feel them around. I know it is my turn and I have a lot of work to do.

Besides all my books, I have 25 years of journals that I have written. I have started looking at all the messages that I have received when I have channeled. This is only the beginning for me. This is my first time having a blog. But this is helping me. I intend as time goes on I will be there for you too. Hugs from me!