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Necessary Prayers

I have most of our things prepared for the storm. This morning I woke to find that bit isn’t hitting the west coast of Florida. All models point going north. However, it is still a crapshoot.

I can’t take a moment of relief, a deep breath,  because my grandchildren and many of my friends are living on another side of the state. Even if I didn’t know anyone that lives there. I know what it is like and know that…Now is the time to take to pray for anyone in its path. Please join me ❤

 

 

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Here we go again!

The 5 phases of grief do not come to you in any specific order. Just because you went through the phase it doesn’t mean that you will not be hit with it again.  There is a different aspect of the anger that you haven’t addressed.

There are different types of losses.  You may be going through the loss of a special person,  but however, there are losses that occur that you don’t realize that require processing just as much a loss of a loved one.   There is a loss of a home, Job, finance, friend who moved away or a relationship that didn’t work. A  divorce.  The key does not disregard these losses as something you don’t have to process.  Loss is a loss.

Once you have acknowledged what it is that you are going through.  You can take a deep breath, don’t beat yourself up about it and carry on.

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Grieving to long?

You get to a point in you life when you can not escape the experiences of grief.   The experiences are different, pending on the relation to you.  Whether it is our parents, spouse, or children the pain of grief is immobolizing. I’ve experienced all three, even though the spouse was an ex.  Still felt bad, because he gave me two beautiful boys. So I can honestly say I can speak to this subject.

The biggest question is how long should you grieve? The answer is: It is my journey, and when it takes as long as it takes.   There are the 5 stages, by Kubler-Ross. I included them in a previous post.  You will move on and there are several ways to help you. That is what motivated me to create this blog.  You will heal. But there is, and always will be a hole in your heart where your relation(s) was.

Even if you expect a loss,  you never are ready for it.  The idea sends you into shell shock, your numb and you walk around like you are in a constant fog.  This doesn’t have to happen. But it does, more often than not.  As time goes by, the fog starts to lift.  This is the time you need to start taking your own initiative to do things. Be creative, write in journal,  read…so many options.

There will be moments when something sets you off, but You get back on track, but it is only 2 steps back not 10.  Acknowledge what you have done, be proud and know you will make it through.

This isn’t the easiest topic. But I feel that by helping you understand my journey, it might also help you understand you are not alone, not just you. Most important you will be ok.

Please comment or you are welcome to leave a message to contact you if you need someone to talk to.

 

 

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I must be strong, even on rainy days!

It has been a rainy day, and I found there was not much I felt like doing, so I reflected on my life and the challenges I had to face.  I look at my resume and see my accomplishments and was amazed at what I really did do. I look at pictures and think of the relationships. Saw how I grew as time passed. Saw how the kids grow and their amazing tributes they offered this planet. Proud Momma.

Take this time to reflect and write out your accomplishments.  Then on a rainy day. Take them out and read them.  Smile to yourself, and say. I’m Strong.  I can accomplish anything I want to do. Because look what I have already done! Be proud of you!  Even on rainy days!

 

6 Months Already

It is for 6 months since Allen has passed. I have gone through the gambit of emotions. But last few nights have been rough with the debates. My son would have been on the campaign trails by now and we would have been on the phone through the whole thing and explaining the whole thing, not that I couldn’t, but he had the pulse higher up before he chose who to work for. He was in demand. I missed him so much.   He was such an animated person, everyone loved him. But he wanted to be with his brother, Brett in heaven. I know they are in a good place and fulfilling their purpose in Gods hands. I’ve had signs, I’ve talked to them and even though I miss and love them both. I know I’ll be ok. I got 2 angels watching over me!

Coming back to this blog helps me so much.  Each day, I work on something new to keep me going.  It doesn’t matter whether it is 6 months or 6 years. I miss them both the same. 

Well, I must have missed a month in my frozen state because it is 7 months.

Posted in Creativity, Grieving Naturally, Self Determination, Uncategorized

Pulling it all together

Over the years I’ve saved several sayings that I have liked from various places and Facebook shares.  They spike a thought and possibly creativity within me. I’ve been busy in my office trying to make sense of all the wonderful supplies I have! I am grateful for all that I have but now. I am working on organizing.  I need to be in somewhat of order before I can create.

I went out and got myself some art supplies and jewelry supplies so I can enjoy both my creative talents.  It is a good sign that I am feeling a pull to create. It has been a while and to my followers, I apologize. I’ve been frozen in place from grief. Couldn’t get off the couch.

I did finally get myself into the pool in our community and get my body moving… That felt so good and now want to get my mind working  It goes in and out grief hits you at different times. I stay frozen (that is what I call it) less and less. This is good.

Tomorrow which is Memorial Day, I am celebrating my son’s 31 Birthday.  First birthday since he went to heaven.  I’m working on pulling myself together here so I don’t focus on sadness.  I’m getting excited to dive into my jewelry beads and let them sing to me and see what I can come up with.  I was on my design table last week and drew a blank.  I know something is in there.  I’m taking action and responsibility.  I know I’ll have some sad days. Each time I get back to myself faster and faster.

Hugs from me.