Posted in Chaya's Journey, Insights, Overcoming Emotions, Self Determination, Uncategorized, Wisdom

The answers you are looking for are inside!

After years ( I can say years !) of being a truth seeker of many philosophies and religions, I honestly was spinning my wheels looking back. Not one proved to be more fulfilling than the other. If so, it was short lived. The knowledge base I have developed, is amazing, but not quite the whole Akashic records!

For this attention deficit goddess, I was all over the place. I’d get pulled to one then the other. What I didn’t understand, I made charts for. This helped me to put the pieces together. What I found was there was nothing under the sun that is new. Just several different authors spinning the same wheel. This is not necessarily a bad thing. Not all people get the message in the same manner.

The other issues I ran into was seeking a teacher. I wanted a mentor. There were some good ones, some bad ones. The bad teachers were the ones that would not release the student. This was due to their own ego issues. Nothing stopped me, I kept looking. They were there for a purpose. Well they were all there for a purpose, I have come to learn. Some got to show me my shadow side.

Then there were the groups. When I was back in college, I did a paper on cults. They all have a big lie, they tell you who you can or can’t talk to. They let you know you can only be with them in their thinking. When I first started in a group, the information was pretty much interesting and attracted my attention. The people were so friendly. Like most, that is what I needed more than the information, now that I look back on it. Most of the time I got out in time unscathed. There were times I payed a dear price with my mind, body and spirit. I picked up my big girl pants and moved on.

In my autumn to winter years of my life, I have not stopped seeking. By this time, I recognized that both eastern and western thoughts were basically the same. They all had the basic moral laws to live by.

In 1996, I started in my Reiki Energy training. In 2000, I was certified as a Reiki Master/Teacher Certificate. I meditated before, but even more so when healing myself and others. As I pulled the energy down from God through my crown chakra. I learned to be still and clear my mind. By the time I achieved mastery, learned to listen to myself, by getting messages from my higher self. I trust this is God, Goddess, Spirit, Buddha or Allah. Doesn’t matter. I stand on the shoulders of all these great masters. They taught me well. They are all of the collective consciousness. All of them are listening. But the main thing am I? Now I can say yes!

The best lesson I learned, was to ask my higher self if there is something needed to be learned from all this knowledge. I’m laughing now, but my Attention Deficit came in handy. I learned a specific piece of knowledge, got anxious and moved on. It was not meant for me to stay with it, I’d read the book for days if it was truly calling me. Even when someone is being evil and mean There is a reason, they were placed in my movie for me to learn a lesson.

I didn’t do this at the time you were going through the process. But we hold on to these experiences in every cell of our body. It is time to release the negativity. Take a look at what is still ailing ourselves and let it go. It is Never too late.

Posted in motivation, Overcoming Emotions, Uncategorized

Unnecessary Anxiety

There is a hurricane coming! Meteorologist is in high gear on TV, and they are soooo excited! People all around are at the stores buying up all the water and supplies. Well, I can really freak out or not.  First of all, they have no clue what direction it is going. I am watching all the people panic. Many Floridians already know this. Some still panic.

I check to see if I had batteries and all the things you need for the go-bag. I got food. I filled the water bottles. Which I have not developed the list yet. It is Thursday, It is not coming until Monday and that is if it hits here. Well ran out of batteries, ordered from Amazon, here by tomorrow. The task is done.

Worry makes us old! There are so many times we waste so much time with unnecessary anxiety. Don’t get me wrong, I lived through 2 horrifying experiences in 2004 with 10 each without electric. Not to mention the level 5 coming at us 5 years ago that didn’t hit our area that bad. I don’t want to go through this again. Yes, I am nervous. But we have time. I have the stuff in the house.

It is not hitting to Sunday, Monday or maybe Tuesday. So how many days are we going to put our body into turmoil? We do this to ourselves, not just through hurricanes. Anxiety is so harmful to us. We don’t need a pill. We can do this!  It is important at this time to stop and pause, pace yourself, take a few deep breaths. Make your list. You just might be surprised that you already have most of the items and your go-to bag is full. If the hurricane doesn’t even come your way. You put yourself through an unnecessary unliving hell for nothing. Now Breathe!

Posted in Creativity, Crystals, Uncategorized

You had the power all along, my Dear…Glynda, the Good Witch.

I don’t know about you…but I need this constant reminder. Because there are times I let myself down.  I know I can create miracles like we all can!  I’ll go into a pity party and even I don’t like me.  So Out of nowhere, today I said I was going to come into the office and create. So I did! Sometimes I amaze myself. I’m being funny here.

The picture I added to this post is what I designed today. I am an earth sign and needed grounding.  The color brown is all about being all-natural and organic.  About security, stability, and support.  I’m needing that today.  There are not any precious stones on this piece. However, there is copper.  It is a healing metal. It is a conductor of energy. Copper is linked to the divine and the Queen of Heaven.

When I want to empower all my existing power within. I pull a piece of jewelry or a crystal to speak to me. I just don’t design. I Chant and heal as I work on each piece.  This is the power within  What do you do in your life that enhances the power within?

Posted in Grieving Naturally, Self Determination

“I didn’t get there by wishing for it or hoping for it, but by working for it.” – Estée Lauder

I really like this quote today. I needed the reminder today.  I worked my whole life and now in retirement. It is easy to slip into a comfortable mode. I really don’t want to totally be comfortable. There is always a need to strive for something wonderful.

What I’m striving for now is to help others who have just started their journey. I never claim to be an expert. However, I have been there and definitely bought the T-shirt.   As a single parent, I have mastered the art of networking. It was a survival technique to get one through the day. If one source didn’t work, on to the next with no regrets.  That is what made me tough and strong. I Mostly landing on my feet.  If there was a block, I worked a little more. I have many accomplishments. That is what I hold onto.  Because now with the loss of two children, I use that core of my accomplishments to hold me up daily.

I worked as a programmer in earlier years and then a contract executive assistant and technical writer.  Mostly in a men’s world.  Working the crazy hours, and still came home to be with the children to get them through their evening routine and to bed.  Many women are still married and they find they have to do it alone too! The responsibility is mostly on their shoulders.

I’ve experienced that time when I was afraid to leave a relationship, but it dawned on me, that I was doing it all anyway.  Many control freaks do a good job of trying to insist you are worthless.  But oh no, not this one. Bye Felicia!

NOOOooooo, I do not want those crazy hours anymore. But I will not lose that drive, the motivation, to keep on going in a forward motion.  I worked most of my life. You just don’t lose that identity. Your desire keeps your heart going and puts a nice smile on your face!

Posted in Grieving Naturally, Insights, Self Determination

When In Doubt, Map It Out

Ive spent most of my career in the computer world. With over 40 years experience, I’ve learned that before you take on a project, you map out your plan.

Why not take this knowledge to everyday life. In our busy lives, we forge ahead to get through our daily tasks and then wonder why they don’t get done. I took a time management  course. I learned that completion creates energy, incompletion, deminishes it. So we have a choice which direction to take on this map.

Programming is a lot of yes, no, if, then, and  that thought process. You take situations of your life through this process. Write it down.

You get to see how much time you waste.  You also make time for more activities. Some steps are just not necessary, so why go there or do them?

You also get to see how silly you were, to be anxious over a task, how easy it was to complete.  Simply by eliminating unnecessary  tasks on your journey.

I invite you to start mapping your life tasks, so you can make room to be truly alive!

Love to hear from you!

Posted in Grieving Naturally, Self Determination, Uncategorized

Here we go again!

The 5 phases of grief do not come to you in any specific order. Just because you went through the phase it doesn’t mean that you will not be hit with it again.  There is a different aspect of the anger that you haven’t addressed.

There are different types of losses.  You may be going through the loss of a special person,  but however, there are losses that occur that you don’t realize that require processing just as much a loss of a loved one.   There is a loss of a home, Job, finance, friend who moved away or a relationship that didn’t work. A  divorce.  The key does not disregard these losses as something you don’t have to process.  Loss is a loss.

Once you have acknowledged what it is that you are going through.  You can take a deep breath, don’t beat yourself up about it and carry on.

Posted in Grieving Naturally

Grieving to long?

You get to a point in you life when you can not escape the experiences of grief.   The experiences are different, pending on the relation to you.  Whether it is our parents, spouse, or children the pain of grief is immobolizing. I’ve experienced all three, even though the spouse was an ex.  Still felt bad, because he gave me two beautiful boys. So I can honestly say I can speak to this subject.

The biggest question is how long should you grieve? The answer is: It is my journey, and when it takes as long as it takes.   There are the 5 stages, by Kubler-Ross. I included them in a previous post.  You will move on and there are several ways to help you. That is what motivated me to create this blog.  You will heal. But there is, and always will be a hole in your heart where your relation(s) was.

Even if you expect a loss,  you never are ready for it.  The idea sends you into shell shock, your numb and you walk around like you are in a constant fog.  This doesn’t have to happen. But it does, more often than not.  As time goes by, the fog starts to lift.  This is the time you need to start taking your own initiative to do things. Be creative, write in journal,  read…so many options.

There will be moments when something sets you off, but You get back on track, but it is only 2 steps back not 10.  Acknowledge what you have done, be proud and know you will make it through.

This isn’t the easiest topic. But I feel that by helping you understand my journey, it might also help you understand you are not alone, not just you. Most important you will be ok.

Please comment or you are welcome to leave a message to contact you if you need someone to talk to.

 

 

Posted in Grieving Naturally, Self Determination, Uncategorized

I must be strong, even on rainy days!

It has been a rainy day, and I found there was not much I felt like doing, so I reflected on my life and the challenges I had to face.  I look at my resume and see my accomplishments and was amazed at what I really did do. I look at pictures and think of the relationships. Saw how I grew as time passed. Saw how the kids grow and their amazing tributes they offered this planet. Proud Momma.

Take this time to reflect and write out your accomplishments.  Then on a rainy day. Take them out and read them.  Smile to yourself, and say. I’m Strong.  I can accomplish anything I want to do. Because look what I have already done! Be proud of you!  Even on rainy days!