I decided to change my desk around, originally because the A/C vent was freezing me out! My dear partner helped me move things around. I solved that situation. But what I also did was make room for my art supply caddy! There is also plenty of room to move my keyboard out of the way and take a sketch pad out.
I then turn my chair around and I’m at my design table. I’m a happy camper today! I find that as i reorganize my office, I’m finding the energy open up to create easier.
The past year, I have been having visions of drawing something. I don’t have the tools or the know-how to do what I saw. However, I have ordered all the types of pens and brushes I need. I’m going to go to learn something this week. The internet has unlimited resources to choose from. I’m ready to play!
You get to a point in you life when you can not escape the experiences of grief. The experiences are different, pending on the relation to you. Whether it is our parents, spouse, or children the pain of grief is immobolizing. I’ve experienced all three, even though the spouse was an ex. Still felt bad, because he gave me two beautiful boys. So I can honestly say I can speak to this subject.
The biggest question is how long should you grieve? The answer is: It is my journey, and when it takes as long as it takes. There are the 5 stages, by Kubler-Ross. I included them in a previous post. You will move on and there are several ways to help you. That is what motivated me to create this blog. You will heal. But there is, and always will be a hole in your heart where your relation(s) was.
Even if you expect a loss, you never are ready for it. The idea sends you into shell shock, your numb and you walk around like you are in a constant fog. This doesn’t have to happen. But it does, more often than not. As time goes by, the fog starts to lift. This is the time you need to start taking your own initiative to do things. Be creative, write in journal, read…so many options.
There will be moments when something sets you off, but You get back on track, but it is only 2 steps back not 10. Acknowledge what you have done, be proud and know you will make it through.
This isn’t the easiest topic. But I feel that by helping you understand my journey, it might also help you understand you are not alone, not just you. Most important you will be ok.
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“If you do what you always did, you will get what you always got.” —Anonymous
It has been a rainy day, and I found there was not much I felt like doing, so I reflected on my life and the challenges I had to face. I look at my resume and see my accomplishments and was amazed at what I really did do. I look at pictures and think of the relationships. Saw how I grew as time passed. Saw how the kids grow and their amazing tributes they offered this planet. Proud Momma.
Take this time to reflect and write out your accomplishments. Then on a rainy day. Take them out and read them. Smile to yourself, and say. I’m Strong. I can accomplish anything I want to do. Because look what I have already done! Be proud of you! Even on rainy days!
Fear can freeze you in place! Today I drove my car for first time in 4 years. I looked up at the book case this morning and saw the book pop out at me. Feel the Fear, and Do It Anyway. I didnt read book yet, but for today You don’t even need to read the book to figure out what one needs to do.
I chanted my little “Everything will be ok”, and it was. Everyone has their own fears, some many. I invite you to challenge yourself and share what you accomplished.
When friends let me down. Yes, they are human. I turn to my crystals. They are wiser and present a deeper meaning to what I really need to know. Lapis Lazuli is a stone for wisdom. I made this for myself for the very purpose to bring forth insights!
I view a crystal as a transmitter to the sacred space within each and every one of us. This is where energy overflows and it is one of our keys or our tools for transforming ourself. Many sages believe that crystals have the highest form of knowledge, and they can show us what we need in the past, present, and future. They speak to us.
When we wear jewelry we infuse their healing qualities. They are from the earth. They all have a chemical make up. If our body needs that chemical in our body it will take from the stone. Like shells have calcium. It will take what it needs. Lapis has a long chemical make up …so I simply use charts. When looking for insight, you are not going for physical healing, however, it will do the healing anyway.
When I design jewelry, I also pray and chant as I design it. I love working with mostly natural stones. I love the feel of it. Plastic just doesn’t do that for you. I may use it for design and space. In this piece, the copper also has properties along with Swarovski crystals.
People of the east have been using crystals to help us live harmoniously for thousands of years. The west took hold of it in the 80s and adapted it to our holistic way of living. I will be bringing forth other healing stones and designs as we go along. Have a wonderful day for yourself and find a stone that suits you and sees what it has to say!