Over the years I’ve saved several sayings that I have liked from various places and Facebook shares. They spike a thought and possibly creativity within me. I’ve been busy in my office trying to make sense of all the wonderful supplies I have! I am grateful for all that I have but now. I am working on organizing. I need to be in somewhat of order before I can create.
I went out and got myself some art supplies and jewelry supplies so I can enjoy both my creative talents. It is a good sign that I am feeling a pull to create. It has been a while and to my followers, I apologize. I’ve been frozen in place from grief. Couldn’t get off the couch.
I did finally get myself into the pool in our community and get my body moving… That felt so good and now want to get my mind working It goes in and out grief hits you at different times. I stay frozen (that is what I call it) less and less. This is good.
Tomorrow which is Memorial Day, I am celebrating my son’s 31 Birthday. First birthday since he went to heaven. I’m working on pulling myself together here so I don’t focus on sadness. I’m getting excited to dive into my jewelry beads and let them sing to me and see what I can come up with. I was on my design table last week and drew a blank. I know something is in there. I’m taking action and responsibility. I know I’ll have some sad days. Each time I get back to myself faster and faster.
Hugs from me.
First and foremost my friends. I did not realize how long it has been since I posted. So accept my apology.
Even though I have been working with metaphysics for several years. I should know better. I found sometimes when around people, like relatives or people you think you know well. You forget to protect yourself.
What happens you end up taking in the energy negative or positive and it sticks to you like velcro, wear it like glue and then wonder what is happening to you. You find your self sad, depressed or even sick. It has nothing to do with you. It was their stuff. It takes you a while before you realize this and recover takes a bit. Feel lethargic.
My go-to is food for comfort. and that doesn’t help!
I usually use a piece of black tourmaline to protect myself. I throw it in my pocket. I also smudge myself with sage. Do a chakra cleanse. Then I feel like I’m coming out of the fog. I had a lot of family stuff that hit me these past weeks. No lie, the grieving doesn’t help. Makes me more vulnerable. People who haven’t lost children, can not know what it is like to lose them. It is a different type of grief. People mean well.
Well, I’m glad to be back. I will see you soon…Take a hug!
I have stood on the shoulders of giants, as I have learned through the years. My main interest for years is finding books, articles, and websites that would help me find ways In which I can heal myself. We hold such power to do that. Much is right at our fingertips! Our fingers are jumper cables and we can balance our bodies all by ourselves. There are so many modalities. This is a good place to start.
As I find interesting information that I feel that would work. I am happy to pass it on to you. I am not necessarily trying to promote one modality or another. This is how I found things to work for me. If you like the websites, enjoy!
The first link is Jin Shin Jitsu, Inc. The main purpose of this method is self-healing. She has many books which I purchased if you want to pursue this for yourself.
Below is a handy article that I found on the process.
I had a rough week this week. Yes, I miss you too! I’ve been so sensitive about the silliest of things. I caught myself crying. I’ve tried so much to stay strong. Then the flood gates opened and they didn’t stop. I feel that sometimes it is so hard to stay strong you have to give yourself a break. Regroup and start all over again. Each time it gets less and less time between strong times.
All week I stayed on the couch. Did not do much. Numb. I just don’t like that. It is not right. Then I start with the wrong foods. This morning I said Stop!
Then I said to myself that it is ok to have a good cry. You lost 2 children. You gave birth to them, you raised them, fed them, clothed them, and everything else that goes along with raising children. All of a sudden they are pulled out from under you. You watched them suffer. Your heart is still connected to them. Poof…they are gone. What an empty feeling. They were adults they had their own lives. They were out on their own. But I really miss them! That is ok!
Today I’m typing this from my computer, opposed to the tablet. I am in my office and ready to start designing some jewelry. Hope you have a great day!
I have so many things on my list to do. My ADD kicked in and my brain went into a whirlwind. I finally found my way into the office and started working on paperwork. Getting organized and created some forms for my personal accounting. I had to remember to punch a 3 hole in the forms. You know they would get put back into the paper file and be rendered useless. Well, this is a start!
Good timing! I sure need to release my energy blocks that is keeping me from moving forward. Had a few rough days. I know it is grief. Today is a good day to start.
I invite you to indulge yourself in participating in your own full moon release. Bring your crystals and oils, release the blocks. Journal it out
All things work out in divine order …
and it is so!
I had a rough weekend. My partner passed a kidney stones, ouch! He required attention. I didn’t mind. But I realized I forgot me.
I didn’t post my food, nor eat healthy meals. I will always be there for other people, I’ll keep doing it. The poor guy was in pain, I was very concerned. But I forgot to take care of me.
I’d love to find out a way to jump out of the moment to take care of me, consistently. Mainly, because there will always be something happening. I get through the stress, then i want to eat anything not tied down.
The key is not settling on forgetting ourselves, no matter what is thrown in our path! It is about settling on being the best we can! You keep striving, you get it!