It has been a rough week. My life partner has been admitted with both some heart and kidney failure. It has been very trying for me. Dealing with hospitals alone can send you in a whirlwind. It has been less than a year since my son died so all this stuff is fresh in my brain. I will trust he will be fine.
Since all this has happened, I had to get up and move around more, walk more, do more. Break through fears. It was rough the first couple of days. But now that it has been a week, it felt good to walk, it feels good to get up and to do things. I’m choosing to eat healthier. Key is why do I need a horrible event to get me moving. I am not alone on this, that I know.
Sometimes when we are faced with something like this. We have to look in the mirror and say. Hey what is it about me that I don’t like with this situation. I am in no position to call the kettle black, I can be mad at him if I am not caring for myself. Wake up time!!!!!
I have most of our things prepared for the storm. This morning I woke to find that bit isn’t hitting the west coast of Florida. All models point going north. However, it is still a crapshoot.
I can’t take a moment of relief, a deep breath, because my grandchildren and many of my friends are living on another side of the state. Even if I didn’t know anyone that lives there. I know what it is like and know that…Now is the time to take to pray for anyone in its path. Please join me ❤
There is a hurricane coming! Meteorologist is in high gear on TV, and they are soooo excited! People all around are at the stores buying up all the water and supplies. Well, I can really freak out or not. First of all, they have no clue what direction it is going. I am watching all the people panic. Many Floridians already know this. Some still panic.
I check to see if I had batteries and all the things you need for the go-bag. I got food. I filled the water bottles. Which I have not developed the list yet. It is Thursday, It is not coming until Monday and that is if it hits here. Well ran out of batteries, ordered from Amazon, here by tomorrow. The task is done.
Worry makes us old! There are so many times we waste so much time with unnecessary anxiety. Don’t get me wrong, I lived through 2 horrifying experiences in 2004 with 10 each without electric. Not to mention the level 5 coming at us 5 years ago that didn’t hit our area that bad. I don’t want to go through this again. Yes, I am nervous. But we have time. I have the stuff in the house.
It is not hitting to Sunday, Monday or maybe Tuesday. So how many days are we going to put our body into turmoil? We do this to ourselves, not just through hurricanes. Anxiety is so harmful to us. We don’t need a pill. We can do this! It is important at this time to stop and pause, pace yourself, take a few deep breaths. Make your list. You just might be surprised that you already have most of the items and your go-to bag is full. If the hurricane doesn’t even come your way. You put yourself through an unnecessary unliving hell for nothing. Now Breathe!
I decided to change my desk around, originally because the A/C vent was freezing me out! My dear partner helped me move things around. I solved that situation. But what I also did was make room for my art supply caddy! There is also plenty of room to move my keyboard out of the way and take a sketch pad out.
I then turn my chair around and I’m at my design table. I’m a happy camper today! I find that as i reorganize my office, I’m finding the energy open up to create easier.
The past year, I have been having visions of drawing something. I don’t have the tools or the know-how to do what I saw. However, I have ordered all the types of pens and brushes I need. I’m going to go to learn something this week. The internet has unlimited resources to choose from. I’m ready to play!
I don’t know about you…but I need this constant reminder. Because there are times I let myself down. I know I can create miracles like we all can! I’ll go into a pity party and even I don’t like me. So Out of nowhere, today I said I was going to come into the office and create. So I did! Sometimes I amaze myself. I’m being funny here.
The picture I added to this post is what I designed today. I am an earth sign and needed grounding. The color brown is all about being all-natural and organic. About security, stability, and support. I’m needing that today. There are not any precious stones on this piece. However, there is copper. It is a healing metal. It is a conductor of energy. Copper is linked to the divine and the Queen of Heaven.
When I want to empower all my existing power within. I pull a piece of jewelry or a crystal to speak to me. I just don’t design. I Chant and heal as I work on each piece. This is the power within What do you do in your life that enhances the power within?
I really like this quote today. I needed the reminder today. I worked my whole life and now in retirement. It is easy to slip into a comfortable mode. I really don’t want to totally be comfortable. There is always a need to strive for something wonderful.
What I’m striving for now is to help others who have just started their journey. I never claim to be an expert. However, I have been there and definitely bought the T-shirt. As a single parent, I have mastered the art of networking. It was a survival technique to get one through the day. If one source didn’t work, on to the next with no regrets. That is what made me tough and strong. I Mostly landing on my feet. If there was a block, I worked a little more. I have many accomplishments. That is what I hold onto. Because now with the loss of two children, I use that core of my accomplishments to hold me up daily.
I worked as a programmer in earlier years and then a contract executive assistant and technical writer. Mostly in a men’s world. Working the crazy hours, and still came home to be with the children to get them through their evening routine and to bed. Many women are still married and they find they have to do it alone too! The responsibility is mostly on their shoulders.
I’ve experienced that time when I was afraid to leave a relationship, but it dawned on me, that I was doing it all anyway. Many control freaks do a good job of trying to insist you are worthless. But oh no, not this one. Bye Felicia!
NOOOooooo, I do not want those crazy hours anymore. But I will not lose that drive, the motivation, to keep on going in a forward motion. I worked most of my life. You just don’t lose that identity. Your desire keeps your heart going and puts a nice smile on your face!
Ive spent most of my career in the computer world. With over 40 years experience, I’ve learned that before you take on a project, you map out your plan.
Why not take this knowledge to everyday life. In our busy lives, we forge ahead to get through our daily tasks and then wonder why they don’t get done. I took a time management course. I learned that completion creates energy, incompletion, deminishes it. So we have a choice which direction to take on this map.
Programming is a lot of yes, no, if, then, and that thought process. You take situations of your life through this process. Write it down.
You get to see how much time you waste. You also make time for more activities. Some steps are just not necessary, so why go there or do them?
You also get to see how silly you were, to be anxious over a task, how easy it was to complete. Simply by eliminating unnecessary tasks on your journey.
I invite you to start mapping your life tasks, so you can make room to be truly alive!
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“If you obey all the rules, you miss all the fun.”
The 5 phases of grief do not come to you in any specific order. Just because you went through the phase it doesn’t mean that you will not be hit with it again. There is a different aspect of the anger that you haven’t addressed.
There are different types of losses. You may be going through the loss of a special person, but however, there are losses that occur that you don’t realize that require processing just as much a loss of a loved one. There is a loss of a home, Job, finance, friend who moved away or a relationship that didn’t work. A divorce. The key does not disregard these losses as something you don’t have to process. Loss is a loss.
Once you have acknowledged what it is that you are going through. You can take a deep breath, don’t beat yourself up about it and carry on.
This post just showed up in my FB today. I loved it. It was encouraging and felt I wanted to share it with you. Have no idea who wrote it. But that is what I needed today. Just Keep going. Hope you are having a wonderful weekend. I’m working on it. Been raining for 3 weeks down in Florida.