This month is especially difficult for me because both my boy’s Angel Dates are in this month. My Heart has a hole in it where they used to be. I know they transitioned and are around me all the time. I talk and sing to them. I Reminiscence with them! I even get angry with them. I know that we all loved each other. I let them know how much their existence made a difference in my life and still does. I’m a better person for it.
I know God had a higher purpose for the both of them, and the lessons they gave me have brought my own soul vibration up to higher levels. I don’t believe I would have known how beautiful a mother’s love is. They both grew into wonderful young men. Proud of each of them in their own way. A mother’s love is unselfish. I had to learn about myself. I had to learn that they come first. I was a single mom and working full time wasn’t a choice it was a necessity. Every chance I had I spent time with them.
I am walking this path now. A good path. Last December I started taking care of my health instead of buying into the fear of the media. I feel good. I have more to go for my goal. Much of this was because I knew they were the strength the forged me through some really tough times. More people brought on, the more I found my soul appeared lighter. I didn’t want to bog my children down. I wanted their souls to soar and learn and play.
This does not mean I don’t have some bad days. But they appear to be a lot less now. It is a knowing that they are here, all around me that gets me through the day. This understanding didn’t just drop in my lap. I worked for it. I have a sense of peace now. It’s about finding balance!
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Thank you Lisa! I saw this meme on my friend’s post and I know she’s having a blast uncluttering her home in order to sell. I reorganized my kitchen and livingroom this week and it has that just moved in (unpack) look!
I had someone help me out a bit, as I was trying to put this stuff in order. She asked how I have all that I do. Well I have had myself a job and a home for well over 40 years for starters. I didn’t lose my home and took care of things. So I’m not going to apologize for all that I have!
Now, after saying that. Do I need all this! There is just two of us. My books are my friends. Many are reference. So are all the papers! Yikes Now that I can actually see my books with the reorganizing, I have new stuff to start writing about.
The above meme is right we spent all those years of money, energy and time to clean up a mess. It is time to weed out what I don’t need. It is a toss up, after working hard to obtain what I did and then to wonder why?!? It is all inside us. There is no need to fill our selves with stuff anymore.
When I feel a sense of order on the inside as I unclutter. Then the world around me starts to unclutter, too!
We all have some rough days. Especially during this time. We can choose to get swallowed up in it or shift your mind set, your consciousness to helping others. There is no energy sitting in your anger, stewing over things you can not change.
Step out of yourself and see what is around you that you can change. If you are stuck inside, work the internet spreading positive vibes to everyone. When all is said and done. You feel so much better that you didn’t get caught up is somethings you know that wouldn’t turn out too well. Sometimes I will write out paragraphs of anger, and erase it because I know that the results would not be in my favor.
I still believe that there is a good inside everyone. Believe me I’ve been tested. Many may not deserve it. I’m a better person for it. I still Keep doing it. The respond in a negative way it is their karma not mine. I’m finding my soul being so much more at peace. Closer you move towards the light, the lights will shine brighter on you.
It is so important during these difficult times to look within yourself and find the strength and stillness and be the eye inside that storm. Because we are co-creator with spirit. Spirit just might be able to clue us in if we take time to listen.
I put this meme up on my computer wallpaper as a constant reminder. A reminder that everything around us, that includes politics, family dynamics and dysfunction, is just that around us. It is not happening to us. I am not responsible, if someone else is having a bad hair day. What I am responsible for is how I react to it.
Take that good deep breath and think before you respond.
This post came across my FB page today as a memory from last year! Wanted to share it with you. Because I find it very uplifting.
My instinct was to change the gender on the above quote. But then it wouldn’t be a quote!
It has been a month now since just one more friend left me. This one didn’t like my way of thinking after taking years and many hours of my time, that I know that we both enjoyed. We supported each other, checked in on each other and in one night. it was a two way street. Then poof she flipped a switch out of no where. It certainly something that had nothing to do with me. People can certainly take time in life to retrospect, but no need to try destroy people in order to push them away. In the past I would have owned what is not mine. But I can see in this year along. I so clearly see this is not my circus. I sending only healing light her way.
Since I was a little girl, I never really felt I fit in with the regiment of religion or groups. I seemed to have run into the types that love to want to control. When they realize they can’t… they go in a major destruction mode. I’ve seen this pattern. I may fall a little bit, because I didn’t realize what hit me! I get up fast and I get stronger! There is always the person that said I didn’t get up fast enough. I have strong faith and there was always an instictual twinge within me saying….Nah! I always beat to my own drum. Everytime I go against my grain and try to fit in, I am the one that pays the price. As I got older, I really get tired of the trying. It is about taking advantage of my kindness…then using it against me. Some said along the way if they were me they would do it better. But guess what they are not me and it did what works for me. May not get done as fast as one would like. The end result was the main thing.
This doesn’t mean that I should isolate, or be mean to people. It means spend more quality time with me. Reflect, speak and listen to spirt. As I keep speaking my truth, I step into my truth. All the things people wanted of me, droped by your wayside, it simply didn’t fit! Just maybe all those years I’ve been feeding my emotions so I can fit in places that I really didn’t want to be. Did society really require my attendance? I just didn’t need to be there. Each second, moment and day is a new beginning to start fresh. If by me living by my own integrity is shining my light to bright. So be it.
“Respect your efforts, respect yourself. Self-respect leads to self-discipline. When you have both firmly under your belt, that’s real power”…. Clint Eastwood
With each day, I am finding that I am getting more disciplined. I am owning what issues I need to address and do not own the ones that are none of my business. Sometimes there is a fine line between the two. I have to take a deep breathe then say… That has nothing to do with me. I found with age. I’m getting better with that.
At times when you are vulnerable, we tend to own what others think we should. They are very persistant. It is important to take time to shake off what doesn’t belong to us. There are a lot of psychic vampires that are around us. Those are the ones that don’t like to see you succeed. Don’t like you see you happy. They will go out of the way to bring you down.
As above, so below. When things are happening here on earth, assume there are plenty of energy particles floating around that you don’t see, that can affect you. When I sometimes describe a psychic vampire, I say that it is like you walk into a meeting with a suit of velcro on…and when you walk out of there you have all these energy balls stuck to you. These are the energies of the ones throwing negative thoughts your way. They have their own anger but they want you to own them. They don’t want them but who better than you. You are vulnerable, you will accept them and they don’t have to anymore.
You don’t have to be in a vulnerable spot to be hit by this energy. You can be happy and your life going well. The key is noticing this is what is going on in the moment. Catch it and return it back to the sender. Visualize putting up a mirror and the worst words are going back to them. Don’t own it. If you are an empath. It hurts you worst. Many times you just accept it because of fear. Ask yourself fear of what? Is it my fear?
There are items, amulets and talisman with different symbols that can protect you. Black tourmaline is a good protection. Many cultures have various power items you can use. Many times it is harder when you are around family and very close friends. Your guard is down and they are the last ones you would suspect. Zap …they got you. Each time you catch it, as it is happening. You get stronger. This is self-respect. Because you do deserve it. No one can have power over you unless you hand it to them. Love yourself today
It is very easy to look at the memes that flash by our paths daily on social media. This one in particular was one I wanted to address here. It is easy for someone to say don’t listen, walk away and stay firm. But when you care about someone, invested significant time in a relationship, friendship… this seems impossible. It hurts, it sucks and it is just not right.
What is important is step back. Take a look at it. What was my part in it. Did I have something to do with it? If I did, I’ll try to talk to them. Will they listen to both sides? Was it both parties? Talk it out. Even better did it have anything to do with me at all? Some people just need to put a blame on someone else for the difficulties, saddness, insecurities. They need to feel better and they do it by putting you down. They don’t have a life many times and why they feel they need to attempt to destroy yours too.
This behavior is infultratred in the media. Bullies have been around for centuries. However, how we react to it is what matters. Intellectually we know this. Especially if you are an empath. It is like a smack in the face. It leaves you numb and frozen. It is ok to have these feelings. But take a deep breathe, and revert back to don’t listen, walk away and stand firm. Have a discussion if you think they will be receptive if not. Don’t take that personally either. It’s their problem, not yours. You will be ok. Just because you are.
Stormy weather is not the trees blown in the wind, nor are the surprises coming from the weather people. They are the people who you least expect it to come from at full force with no warning. I can not control these people, nor do I wish too. But just because they say that I should, I could or do anything, doesn’t mean that I have too, nor does it mean that I’m a bad person or not a good friend. It means I do not do things in the same way or the same manor as they do. I can not control these types. What hurts is you had faith that these people are your friends. These storms come from out of left field like a tornado. I’m disappointed that is true. I can’t control the weather, but I can control me.
I’ve ducked for cover and wait out the storm during these times. I’ve had these blast of weather surprises come at me more than I care to mention. I have had to exercise the art of patience over the years. I’m a good friend and a listener. But that art of patience is not my strongest virtue when I’ve been dealt blast of stormy wind. I do not wish to be whipped around with the waves of emotion. I can either stay in its path or protect myself. I do not intend to be caught up in this one. I will wait out the storm. My strength has not withered, it is just knowing that this was not my storm to whether.
We all have rough days. So more difficult than others. But we have to choose whether we want to mire in the muck or move forward. It’s a rainy type of day. My bones hurt and I can really surrender to going to sleep and stay in there until the morning.
For me when I feel things are impossible, I come into the office and start typing. I can write myself out of impossible and realize that I am possible. Sometimes this is a daily task. It works for me. Then I’ll take it a next step and talk to someone on here or on phone that I know that I can help. It gets me out of being in a pity party. Leaves me with a good feeling. What do you do to get you out of an impossible mood?