This week I lost another good friend in the past week. It never gets easy. I find that since I lost my children. I walk another path. A path where my heart was ripped out. Each and every time another loss happens. It hurts a wee bit more.
Yes it hurts. Many people go into fight flight or frozen. Well freeze I do. I do apologize, for I don’t even attempt to sit at this computer until I heal my heart a bit. I have a point of reference, where that is now. My recovery time is so much sooner. This doesn’t mean that I loved less, cared less. it means…with each passing loving soul, I grew stronger. I take time to meditate more.
Take a breath…I take more deep breaths. When someone passes, it literally takes the wind out of your sails. it sets you back. But then the wind comes back and moves you onward. Then at that point you know that this beautiful energy that was your friend or your family member has translated into beautiful energy. Directed by Source towards a whole new purpose. Release with love, compassion, joy and grace…You will always be connected. Exhale.
We all have the capacity to shine and be the light. Sometimes along the walk of life there was someone that said to us, somehow…No not you! Whether it was a clergy, your parents, peer. Doesn’t matter. It sunk in and we found it difficult to fight that mind set. As you get older (you couldn’t tell me this at 20), you find that what you were told, wasn’t necessarily all true. You start to gather information, you pull it together and then realize. Wait a minute. That is not true.
We are humans, but we also are spiritual beings as well. I find the quicker we bounce back, the quicker we start to shine the light. Some circumstances are more difficult than others. They are lessons we must go through. When we arrive on the other side, we tend to have an ah hah moment. If not, we repeat. You got a life time to practice. However, quicker you learn, the easier you are able to stand on your feet, and move on.
Move on to what, you wonder. You move on in life. Even when you get older, you get a reprieve from daily strive. Then bam, a situation comes along for you to pay attention to. Or not. Maybe this one is not your circus. Maybe you have to sit back and let them follow through on their own. You are at this moment preparing yourself for what lies ahead. Maybe it is just rest. Maybe another lesson. No matter what comes across your pathway…always strive to shine through. Have a wonderful day!
Where did January go? It seems like we just celebrated the new year. I hear many people saying I can’t wait for this or that to happen, instead of staying in the present. Do you realize that when we do that. We are wishing our life away. Everything will come in due time. When you are ready it will show up!
What you can do is start visualizing your dream. Make a vision board. What you would like to see in your life. Then visualize it like it is already here. That is different then wishing. When you are wishing you are wishing your life away. When you visualize, You are seeing what you what right here right now! In the moment! You then create it coming true!
Finding balance is critical through out all that we have been through this year. It is important to not accept all that you hear, but do some of your own research. Not only from areas that you have been looking at most of your life. Look at alternatives. It can open up your eyes. You don’t have to change. But sure will give you something to ponder.
This year I chose to pull back and stay centered. Most of my political involvment is issue based, not party. I’m all for good health. I worked at achieving it this year. I feel that if someone is taking care of themselves and having the proper vitamins there is not a need to have the vaccine. If they are not sure of the outcomes. Why should I put myself through it. I am taking care of myself and health. It is not affecting you.
Staying balanced is about taking care of yourself. Not attacking people who don’t believe in what you believe. Maybe trusting they just might know something. Maybe ask them to share what they know. Listen. You might think it is conspiracy, but many of theories have become truth. What do we really know.
What we know is we are here on earth and we have a body. We have to take care of this body in the best we know how. Starting with choosing the right food for you. If you eat the right foods. You may not need vitamins. Get a blood test to see where your deficiencies are. Get some exercise. Yes I need some too! Meditate! Put on some beautiful music and RELAX……ahhh
If you don’t name it so you don’t have to claim it! Words to live by as a self healer. Breathe into the pain…and let it go. Most likely it will disappear and you won’t have to think about it again!
I’m not saying if your heart hurts you might want to have it checked out at the ER. I had learned a lesson over the years. That I do go and get some labs done. Self diagnosis, sometimes needs help. My thyroid gland is slow, so I started taking raw thyroid. Now…it wasn’t that the raw thyroid was bad. It was that I was not being monitored and that I ended up in the hospital with all my major organs starting to shut down. I won’t do that again. I don’t mess with it. But I take care of my health now. I also look at other facets that might be connected with communicating. It’s my 5th Chakra. What am I afraid to communicate. I go within, I breathe, Most often I get my answer. I take action…which will let it go!
I invite you to start looking at your symptoms first. Before claiming a name of what you got! Feel free to ask question.
This month is especially difficult for me because both my boy’s Angel Dates are in this month. My Heart has a hole in it where they used to be. I know they transitioned and are around me all the time. I talk and sing to them. I Reminiscence with them! I even get angry with them. I know that we all loved each other. I let them know how much their existence made a difference in my life and still does. I’m a better person for it.
I know God had a higher purpose for the both of them, and the lessons they gave me have brought my own soul vibration up to higher levels. I don’t believe I would have known how beautiful a mother’s love is. They both grew into wonderful young men. Proud of each of them in their own way. A mother’s love is unselfish. I had to learn about myself. I had to learn that they come first. I was a single mom and working full time wasn’t a choice it was a necessity. Every chance I had I spent time with them.
I am walking this path now. A good path. Last December I started taking care of my health instead of buying into the fear of the media. I feel good. I have more to go for my goal. Much of this was because I knew they were the strength the forged me through some really tough times. More people brought on, the more I found my soul appeared lighter. I didn’t want to bog my children down. I wanted their souls to soar and learn and play.
This does not mean I don’t have some bad days. But they appear to be a lot less now. It is a knowing that they are here, all around me that gets me through the day. This understanding didn’t just drop in my lap. I worked for it. I have a sense of peace now. It’s about finding balance!
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Good Morning, I was on a zoom meeting with some good people and we were talking about spiritual freedom. What does it mean to me. It is walking a path where I can co-creator with the highest and best. It doesn’t matter what you call this energy. Just as much as it doesn’t matter what anyone else does. Focusing on one’s inner self is what brings you closer to a place of peace. Doesn’t matter if I call the energy God, Goddess, Jesus, Buddah, Allah, He, She, Father Sky, Mother Earth or Saint Whatever!.
Many times I would get caught up in the semantics on what to call this energy. Realizing what really matters, is that I trust that it is this wonderful energy is working with me as I walk on my path. That energy is a part of the collective consciousness. So it can be called anything. Have I questioned it? Of course I have! I’ve had some rough roads through out this life time. Yes, I have had some decades to find this out. I knew I wasn’t alone. Everything ultimately turns out alright.
There are days I am right on target and sometimes not. It is important that to spend time during both circumstances speaking to spirit, so stand in gratitude. Honoring the time spent with me, in order to move forward. Building this trust helps when in middle of rough times that I am indeed not alone.
This post came across my FB page today as a memory from last year! Wanted to share it with you. Because I find it very uplifting.
My instinct was to change the gender on the above quote. But then it wouldn’t be a quote!
It has been a month now since just one more friend left me. This one didn’t like my way of thinking after taking years and many hours of my time, that I know that we both enjoyed. We supported each other, checked in on each other and in one night. it was a two way street. Then poof she flipped a switch out of no where. It certainly something that had nothing to do with me. People can certainly take time in life to retrospect, but no need to try destroy people in order to push them away. In the past I would have owned what is not mine. But I can see in this year along. I so clearly see this is not my circus. I sending only healing light her way.
Since I was a little girl, I never really felt I fit in with the regiment of religion or groups. I seemed to have run into the types that love to want to control. When they realize they can’t… they go in a major destruction mode. I’ve seen this pattern. I may fall a little bit, because I didn’t realize what hit me! I get up fast and I get stronger! There is always the person that said I didn’t get up fast enough. I have strong faith and there was always an instictual twinge within me saying….Nah! I always beat to my own drum. Everytime I go against my grain and try to fit in, I am the one that pays the price. As I got older, I really get tired of the trying. It is about taking advantage of my kindness…then using it against me. Some said along the way if they were me they would do it better. But guess what they are not me and it did what works for me. May not get done as fast as one would like. The end result was the main thing.
This doesn’t mean that I should isolate, or be mean to people. It means spend more quality time with me. Reflect, speak and listen to spirt. As I keep speaking my truth, I step into my truth. All the things people wanted of me, droped by your wayside, it simply didn’t fit! Just maybe all those years I’ve been feeding my emotions so I can fit in places that I really didn’t want to be. Did society really require my attendance? I just didn’t need to be there. Each second, moment and day is a new beginning to start fresh. If by me living by my own integrity is shining my light to bright. So be it.
It is very easy to look at the memes that flash by our paths daily on social media. This one in particular was one I wanted to address here. It is easy for someone to say don’t listen, walk away and stay firm. But when you care about someone, invested significant time in a relationship, friendship… this seems impossible. It hurts, it sucks and it is just not right.
What is important is step back. Take a look at it. What was my part in it. Did I have something to do with it? If I did, I’ll try to talk to them. Will they listen to both sides? Was it both parties? Talk it out. Even better did it have anything to do with me at all? Some people just need to put a blame on someone else for the difficulties, saddness, insecurities. They need to feel better and they do it by putting you down. They don’t have a life many times and why they feel they need to attempt to destroy yours too.
This behavior is infultratred in the media. Bullies have been around for centuries. However, how we react to it is what matters. Intellectually we know this. Especially if you are an empath. It is like a smack in the face. It leaves you numb and frozen. It is ok to have these feelings. But take a deep breathe, and revert back to don’t listen, walk away and stand firm. Have a discussion if you think they will be receptive if not. Don’t take that personally either. It’s their problem, not yours. You will be ok. Just because you are.