Posted in Chaya's Journey, healthy eating, Insights, motivation, Overcoming Emotions

Looking at the brighter side of something not so bright!

It has been a rough week. My life partner has been admitted with both some heart and kidney failure. It has been very trying for me. Dealing with hospitals alone can send you in a whirlwind. It has been less than a year since my son died so all this stuff is fresh in my brain. I will trust he will be fine.

Since all this has happened, I had to get up and move around more, walk more, do more. Break through fears. It was rough the first couple of days. But now that it has been a week, it felt good to walk, it feels good to get up and to do things. I’m choosing to eat healthier. Key is why do I need a horrible event to get me moving. I am not alone on this, that I know.

Sometimes when we are faced with something like this. We have to look in the mirror and say. Hey what is it about me that I don’t like with this situation. I am in no position to call the kettle black, I can be mad at him if I am not caring for myself. Wake up time!!!!!

Posted in Energy Healing, Grieving Naturally, healthy eating, Self Determination, Uncategorized

I know better

First and foremost my friends. I did not realize how long it has been since I posted. So accept my apology.

Even though I have been working with metaphysics for several years. I should know better. I found sometimes when around people, like relatives or people you think you know well. You forget to protect yourself.

What happens you end up taking in the energy negative or positive and it sticks to you like velcro, wear it like glue and then wonder what is happening to you.  You find your self sad, depressed or even sick. It has nothing to do with you.  It was their stuff.  It takes you a while before you realize this and recover takes a bit. Feel lethargic.

My go-to is food for comfort. and that doesn’t help!

I usually use a piece of black tourmaline to protect myself. I throw it in my pocket. I also smudge myself with sage. Do a chakra cleanse.  Then I feel like I’m coming out of the fog.  I had a lot of family stuff that hit me these past weeks. No lie, the grieving doesn’t help. Makes me more vulnerable. People who haven’t lost children, can not know what it is like to lose them. It is a different type of grief. People mean well.

Well, I’m glad to be back.  I will see you soon…Take a hug!

Jumping back in the game quicker.

I had a rough weekend. My partner passed a kidney stones, ouch! He required attention.  I didn’t mind. But I realized I forgot me.

I didn’t post my food, nor eat healthy meals. I will always be there for other people, I’ll keep doing it. The poor guy was in pain, I was very concerned. But I forgot to take care of me.

I’d love to find out a way to jump out of the moment to take care of me, consistently.  Mainly, because there will always be something happening. I get through the stress, then i want to eat anything not tied down.

The key is not settling on forgetting ourselves, no matter what is thrown in our path!  It is about settling on being the best we can! You keep striving, you get it!

 

Posted in Grieving Naturally, healthy eating, Uncategorized

How much loss can you take?

I’m only 2 months in from my loss from my younger son Allen. I do ok. I have my moments but I’m functioning. I am doing well with my sugar numbers, even though I had a perfectly good reason to go haywire. 

But then came another blow. My dear friend of over 20 years, took ill in hospital and I lost her yesterday. She does not live near me. I was blessed to be able to say goodbye to her. Her daughter put the phone up to her ear.  Even though we did not live near. We were on the phone daily chatting. To me, that was a visit. We helped each other through the toughest of time. Yes, she was there for me when both my sons passed.  We were there for each other at times for celebration too. 

My heart is so heavy right now.  I feel that grief is trauma.  When you have to deal with so much of it…it takes a toll on you.  This is the second friend within a year that has passed from kidney failure.  What this is showing me, is that I need to stay diligent with my food plan and avoid the sugars. Take care of myself. This goes back to why I even started this blog. I want to live. 

Grieving is not for faint at heart!

For most part, I am doing ok. I put it in my mind that both my sons, are in Spirit’s hands. Then switch you holy sh#t, I lost my two only sons.

What I try to do is switch to writing, designing and focus on eating healthy for lowering my blood sugar. The key is getting off the couch.

It is a constant battle. For 3 days, I saw my self slip into sadness, forget to exercise, make unhealthy food choices, forget my vitamins…

My self talk starts, give yourself a break, it is less than 2 months and move to time to live, enough. The key is not staying in the deep depth of sadness too long, catch yourself. Put on a smile and remind yourself, you are going to be just fine.

Posted in Energy Healing, healthy eating, Wisdom

Finding Balance

After much study in different philosophies, I find the key to most things is finding your balance. I have recently got frustrated with much news because it is either black or white. No middle ground. Along with many other subjects. Teach yourself how to think critically, not to accept all that you hear.

Back in the 80’s, I was introduced to Macrobiotics. I learned the thought about finding balance with the foods. How you can balance your body following this process. I, unfortunately, never followed through on this. But always held onto the understanding of balance close to my heart.

I had a philosophy teacher that also told me that anything in fanaticism is brain dead. I found that to be true. Sometimes you have to be a little fanatic as you learn what you need. But then, it is important to pull back the reins and come to your center.

This mindset can help you throughout most of your life. Whether you are finding a friend or a guru. Someone starts telling you that you can’t see certain people, read things and promises you the world or a morsel of food…Run.

Posted in healthy eating, Uncategorized

If you don’t name a disease, you don’t have to claim it!!!!!!!!!!

I have low blood sugar. I choose to look at it this way. I am trying my darnest not to call it Diabetes. I’m choosing to take care of my health. This blog is my journey to living!

I went to a training yesterday, I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I recognize that I have to take care of myself, however, to be told I have to go to all these lists of doctors that will add to the disease. Yes, I will keep an eye on my eyes and not walk barefoot. That will be rough. I’m always walking barefoot! I’ll Watch for infections. This is something you should do anyway.

Right now I’m trying my best to keep my blood sugar down by healthy eating and living. When I looked into the book they gave me that listed all the drugs that I could possibly take. It cured me of putting a piece of cake in my mouth. The side effects were downright scary. Starting with weight gain. Stomach problems. No wonder you lose weight on that one. It gives you stomach problems.

My biggest hurdle is not eating emotionally. Having been only 1 month since my son passed. Gives me a justified reason for some good chocolate. However, learning how to live is now more about having emotions and not punishing my self in the process. I’m open to any insight!!!!

Posted in healthy eating, Uncategorized

Healthy Eating!

I found this little tidbit on the web or facebook. But I thought it was kind of handy to have around. This past year I was diagnosed with diabetes and I am trying my best to treat it with healthy eating. I hate measuring and this whole thing is a trial and error. But this is part of being the alive plan. Any great ideas are welcome!

I know most of what I have to do. Again, it is doing it! Water, exercise, etc. But give me some stress and bring on the chocolate. I have changed that a bit. Not quite doing celery instead yet. But little by little.