As you come out of the fog from grief., your vision starts to become clearer? Back in 2008 when my first son found out about his brain cancer, I was going for my masters in Strategic Leadership and Personal Development. I was on my last semester, but couldn’t concentrate enough to finish.
That was 10 years and 2 children gone from my life. There is a piece of me that would love to finish. But I do not have the concentration level to deal with exams. But what I am doing in my mind as I do this blog, is finishing my degree. But helping others who have gone through what I have unfortunately had to endure.
Everything is not coming to me overnight. But I’m taking that good old slogan ” One Day at a Time”, and rediscovering myself. All will work out!
When you are coming out of a fog from being frozen in place, whether from grief, depression, stress…move gently! Many cases your mind begins to spin, great ideas and things that you want to accomplish start popping up. Sometimes they cycle and recycle until you say, ah screw that, I’ll just sit here and watch TV.
I have a whiteboard near where I sit and watch TV. Every night I cross off what I did. I add what I did do and was not written, so I can cross it off for the purpose of accomplishment. Then I start a new list for the next day. Seeing this in front of me helps a lot. I actually put fill my vitamin box. If I don’t do it, I will forget for weeks to take them. I will put silly things. Whatever muscle I need to move.
Today I designed a Picture that I was going to trace on the cloth. This is so I can embroider. I promised my sister this right before my son died. I have not picked it up. I pulled all my supplies together and going to put it right by where I sit. I’m ready to start. Might be ready for her birthday next week! I have a backup plan. But my good intentions are to complete it. It is not a complex pattern.
That simple whiteboard did the trick! Just a pad and paper would do. But this thing is big and right in my face! I encourage you to start with one for yourself. Don’t let the simplest of things stop you! It is just fear. You can thank it for sharing and go and do it anyway. Happy Creativity!
It is for 6 months since Allen has passed. I have gone through the gambit of emotions. But last few nights have been rough with the debates. My son would have been on the campaign trails by now and we would have been on the phone through the whole thing and explaining the whole thing, not that I couldn’t, but he had the pulse higher up before he chose who to work for. He was in demand. I missed him so much. He was such an animated person, everyone loved him. But he wanted to be with his brother, Brett in heaven. I know they are in a good place and fulfilling their purpose in Gods hands. I’ve had signs, I’ve talked to them and even though I miss and love them both. I know I’ll be ok. I got 2 angels watching over me!
Coming back to this blog helps me so much. Each day, I work on something new to keep me going. It doesn’t matter whether it is 6 months or 6 years. I miss them both the same.
Well, I must have missed a month in my frozen state because it is 7 months.
The goal in vibrational healing medicine is to move, unblock or balance life energy throughout your mind, body and spiritual bodies. When you are in disharmony, your body goes into dis-ease. It is important to listen to your body for what it needs.
Vibratory energy can balance your system with light, color, sound, crystals, and aromatherapy. There is also Bach Flowers and homeopathy. Reiki is a very popular form of Vibratory application, by unblocking and moving the flow of your vital energy. When doing so many practitioners or yourself, could use the above tools in conjunction with the Reiki.
All vibratory healing comes from the God/Goddess source. Whomever you choose as your source. You trust your source, you trust the energy. Whether it is the practitioner or you working the energy yourself, It is the source doing the work. My Creator speaks to who you call creator. If there is necessary healing, it will take place. If it is not, it won’t. It is not always a quick fix. Drinking a glass of water after treatments the blocked energy flow through and out of your system.
Reiki can simply be done by yourself. But sometimes when we can’t get out of our own way, we can go to a practitioner. I am a Reiki Master/Teacher and work with people, pets, and plants at a distance. I will be posting my schedule and times on here shortly. Stay tuned!
I have had a rough couple of months and seemed like I was frozen in place. I just decided to try my old go-to when stressed. Valerian Root. It seems to be helping me. Grief is a funny beast. I could not believe that I really sat on that couch for 2 months. I did things as I sat there. Including reading and crafts. I forgive myself. For unless you have gone through losing a child. You can not understand. I was doing better in the beginning. But the reality of the loss smacked me head-on. I’m coming out of the fog for now and back on here. Miss all of you with all my heart!
Over the years I’ve saved several sayings that I have liked from various places and Facebook shares. They spike a thought and possibly creativity within me. I’ve been busy in my office trying to make sense of all the wonderful supplies I have! I am grateful for all that I have but now. I am working on organizing. I need to be in somewhat of order before I can create.
I went out and got myself some art supplies and jewelry supplies so I can enjoy both my creative talents. It is a good sign that I am feeling a pull to create. It has been a while and to my followers, I apologize. I’ve been frozen in place from grief. Couldn’t get off the couch.
I did finally get myself into the pool in our community and get my body moving… That felt so good and now want to get my mind working It goes in and out grief hits you at different times. I stay frozen (that is what I call it) less and less. This is good.
Tomorrow which is Memorial Day, I am celebrating my son’s 31 Birthday. First birthday since he went to heaven. I’m working on pulling myself together here so I don’t focus on sadness. I’m getting excited to dive into my jewelry beads and let them sing to me and see what I can come up with. I was on my design table last week and drew a blank. I know something is in there. I’m taking action and responsibility. I know I’ll have some sad days. Each time I get back to myself faster and faster.
Hugs from me.
First and foremost my friends. I did not realize how long it has been since I posted. So accept my apology.
Even though I have been working with metaphysics for several years. I should know better. I found sometimes when around people, like relatives or people you think you know well. You forget to protect yourself.
What happens you end up taking in the energy negative or positive and it sticks to you like velcro, wear it like glue and then wonder what is happening to you. You find your self sad, depressed or even sick. It has nothing to do with you. It was their stuff. It takes you a while before you realize this and recover takes a bit. Feel lethargic.
My go-to is food for comfort. and that doesn’t help!
I usually use a piece of black tourmaline to protect myself. I throw it in my pocket. I also smudge myself with sage. Do a chakra cleanse. Then I feel like I’m coming out of the fog. I had a lot of family stuff that hit me these past weeks. No lie, the grieving doesn’t help. Makes me more vulnerable. People who haven’t lost children, can not know what it is like to lose them. It is a different type of grief. People mean well.
Well, I’m glad to be back. I will see you soon…Take a hug!