Over the years I’ve saved several sayings that I have liked from various places and Facebook shares. They spike a thought and possibly creativity within me. I’ve been busy in my office trying to make sense of all the wonderful supplies I have! I am grateful for all that I have but now. I am working on organizing. I need to be in somewhat of order before I can create.
I went out and got myself some art supplies and jewelry supplies so I can enjoy both my creative talents. It is a good sign that I am feeling a pull to create. It has been a while and to my followers, I apologize. I’ve been frozen in place from grief. Couldn’t get off the couch.
I did finally get myself into the pool in our community and get my body moving… That felt so good and now want to get my mind working It goes in and out grief hits you at different times. I stay frozen (that is what I call it) less and less. This is good.
Tomorrow which is Memorial Day, I am celebrating my son’s 31 Birthday. First birthday since he went to heaven. I’m working on pulling myself together here so I don’t focus on sadness. I’m getting excited to dive into my jewelry beads and let them sing to me and see what I can come up with. I was on my design table last week and drew a blank. I know something is in there. I’m taking action and responsibility. I know I’ll have some sad days. Each time I get back to myself faster and faster.
Hugs from me.
First and foremost my friends. I did not realize how long it has been since I posted. So accept my apology.
Even though I have been working with metaphysics for several years. I should know better. I found sometimes when around people, like relatives or people you think you know well. You forget to protect yourself.
What happens you end up taking in the energy negative or positive and it sticks to you like velcro, wear it like glue and then wonder what is happening to you. You find your self sad, depressed or even sick. It has nothing to do with you. It was their stuff. It takes you a while before you realize this and recover takes a bit. Feel lethargic.
My go-to is food for comfort. and that doesn’t help!
I usually use a piece of black tourmaline to protect myself. I throw it in my pocket. I also smudge myself with sage. Do a chakra cleanse. Then I feel like I’m coming out of the fog. I had a lot of family stuff that hit me these past weeks. No lie, the grieving doesn’t help. Makes me more vulnerable. People who haven’t lost children, can not know what it is like to lose them. It is a different type of grief. People mean well.
Well, I’m glad to be back. I will see you soon…Take a hug!
I have so many things on my list to do. My ADD kicked in and my brain went into a whirlwind. I finally found my way into the office and started working on paperwork. Getting organized and created some forms for my personal accounting. I had to remember to punch a 3 hole in the forms. You know they would get put back into the paper file and be rendered useless. Well, this is a start!
Good timing! I sure need to release my energy blocks that is keeping me from moving forward. Had a few rough days. I know it is grief. Today is a good day to start.
I invite you to indulge yourself in participating in your own full moon release. Bring your crystals and oils, release the blocks. Journal it out
All things work out in divine order …
and it is so!
Keeping in the context of we can create our wellness as well as our illness. I have been trying to catch myself when I am cursing things out. Complaining about stupid things, realizing how important was it really.
I am choosing to stay positive the best that I can. Maybe there won’t be a hurricane that hits us if I don’t worry about! Interesting thought! Or group consciousness…many people not worry. Many people down in Florida don’t even move until they really really know it is about to hit. The newscasters start the fear mongering in January. Being human, and if you have ever been through one, makes you hypersensitive.
Worrying is like praying for something you don’t want, so now I can see how I was faced with so many sh*t storms. I created them. Owning up to your actions is tough. But oh, so necessary. More and more that you can correct yourself when you hear those words coming out of your mouth. Saves you a lot of grief.
When I was taking the journey to my son’s funeral in January. I had not flown since 2009. I was worried about everything. All the what ifs… were piling up. I had to make it stop so I caught myself and kept chanting…”Everything will be alright”. Guess what it was! The plans all fell into place. Amazing how we have the power to change our fate.
I had a rough day yesterday. I was watching the political hearing and thinking, if Allen was alive, we would have been on the phone discussing it. just made me miss him.
Today I decided to upgrade this blog and now have my domain name. Chayathewisdomkeeper.com. Feeling better about this.
I’m gind ing it is ok, to allow yourself a sad day, as long as you pick yourself up right away. Doesn’t mean your less strong, means you are having a moment. Tomorrow it will only be 2 months, for my older son, gone 6 yrs and 3 months. I know they don’t want me to wallow in sorrow. Today, is A NEW DAY, NEW ACCOMPLISHMENTS!
For most part, I am doing ok. I put it in my mind that both my sons, are in Spirit’s hands. Then switch you holy sh#t, I lost my two only sons.
What I try to do is switch to writing, designing and focus on eating healthy for lowering my blood sugar. The key is getting off the couch.
It is a constant battle. For 3 days, I saw my self slip into sadness, forget to exercise, make unhealthy food choices, forget my vitamins…
My self talk starts, give yourself a break, it is less than 2 months and move to time to live, enough. The key is not staying in the deep depth of sadness too long, catch yourself. Put on a smile and remind yourself, you are going to be just fine.