First and foremost my friends. I did not realize how long it has been since I posted. So accept my apology.
Even though I have been working with metaphysics for several years. I should know better. I found sometimes when around people, like relatives or people you think you know well. You forget to protect yourself.
What happens you end up taking in the energy negative or positive and it sticks to you like velcro, wear it like glue and then wonder what is happening to you. You find your self sad, depressed or even sick. It has nothing to do with you. It was their stuff. It takes you a while before you realize this and recover takes a bit. Feel lethargic.
My go-to is food for comfort. and that doesn’t help!
I usually use a piece of black tourmaline to protect myself. I throw it in my pocket. I also smudge myself with sage. Do a chakra cleanse. Then I feel like I’m coming out of the fog. I had a lot of family stuff that hit me these past weeks. No lie, the grieving doesn’t help. Makes me more vulnerable. People who haven’t lost children, can not know what it is like to lose them. It is a different type of grief. People mean well.
Well, I’m glad to be back. I will see you soon…Take a hug!
I had a rough weekend. My partner passed a kidney stones, ouch! He required attention. I didn’t mind. But I realized I forgot me.
I didn’t post my food, nor eat healthy meals. I will always be there for other people, I’ll keep doing it. The poor guy was in pain, I was very concerned. But I forgot to take care of me.
I’d love to find out a way to jump out of the moment to take care of me, consistently. Mainly, because there will always be something happening. I get through the stress, then i want to eat anything not tied down.
The key is not settling on forgetting ourselves, no matter what is thrown in our path! It is about settling on being the best we can! You keep striving, you get it!
I’m only 2 months in from my loss from my younger son Allen. I do ok. I have my moments but I’m functioning. I am doing well with my sugar numbers, even though I had a perfectly good reason to go haywire.
But then came another blow. My dear friend of over 20 years, took ill in hospital and I lost her yesterday. She does not live near me. I was blessed to be able to say goodbye to her. Her daughter put the phone up to her ear. Even though we did not live near. We were on the phone daily chatting. To me, that was a visit. We helped each other through the toughest of time. Yes, she was there for me when both my sons passed. We were there for each other at times for celebration too.
My heart is so heavy right now. I feel that grief is trauma. When you have to deal with so much of it…it takes a toll on you. This is the second friend within a year that has passed from kidney failure. What this is showing me, is that I need to stay diligent with my food plan and avoid the sugars. Take care of myself. This goes back to why I even started this blog. I want to live.
There is not a source of not Well-being. There is not a source of sickness. There is just the disallowance of wellness. In every particle of the Universe there is that which is wanted and lack of it. — Abraham
For most part, I am doing ok. I put it in my mind that both my sons, are in Spirit’s hands. Then switch you holy sh#t, I lost my two only sons.
What I try to do is switch to writing, designing and focus on eating healthy for lowering my blood sugar. The key is getting off the couch.
It is a constant battle. For 3 days, I saw my self slip into sadness, forget to exercise, make unhealthy food choices, forget my vitamins…
My self talk starts, give yourself a break, it is less than 2 months and move to time to live, enough. The key is not staying in the deep depth of sadness too long, catch yourself. Put on a smile and remind yourself, you are going to be just fine.
After much study in different philosophies, I find the key to most things is finding your balance. I have recently got frustrated with much news because it is either black or white. No middle ground. Along with many other subjects. Teach yourself how to think critically, not to accept all that you hear.
Back in the 80’s, I was introduced to Macrobiotics. I learned the thought about finding balance with the foods. How you can balance your body following this process. I, unfortunately, never followed through on this. But always held onto the understanding of balance close to my heart.
I had a philosophy teacher that also told me that anything in fanaticism is brain dead. I found that to be true. Sometimes you have to be a little fanatic as you learn what you need. But then, it is important to pull back the reins and come to your center.
This mindset can help you throughout most of your life. Whether you are finding a friend or a guru. Someone starts telling you that you can’t see certain people, read things and promises you the world or a morsel of food…Run.