“Intelligence is the ability to adapt to change“…Stephen Hawking
Who am I to question the great Stephen Hawking. I started within my mind to do just that. Then I started to look at all the changes that I have been required to adapt to. Then thought to myself, damn I’m good!
When I’m on my journey I tend to seek inquires to people to see if I’m on the right track. Doesn’t mean my ability is less. It means I’m on an information fact finding journey. Once I gather all the information I will make my decision. When I tend to find many challenges are flying at me at once, I do reach out to see what others might do if they were in a situation. Doesn’t mean I buy into all the input, It means that I want to look at all sides of the problem before moving forward. I do have the ability to adapt to change. If anyone can, it is someone who has lost. Many times loss is not just people. During this year I also had a partner lose his job, which resulted in loss of income. If that is not adapting I don’t know what is.
There is no time for a pity party, I picked up and move on. He got a job and I just treated myself to a brand new 2020 Car! It is my birthday present to me. I have the ability to adapt to positive outcomes. So do you!
Back on the 6th of September, I had celebrated my life on this earth for 67 years. I never hid the number from anyone. As time has passed, I learned many lessons. I noticed that some really are not repeating anymore. I celebrated those. I have hit the existing ones head on.
As I grow older I matured. my mind didn’t feel old, but my body reminded me. My body took the brunt end of my emotions through those lessons. The lesson that took the hardest hit at me was the loss of my two children. Wondering why I’m here and the two boys left at such an early age. My friend told me that my eyes looked vacant yestersday. This bothered me. Because I saw it in the photo myself.
Why me? That wasn’t the question. The creator doesn’t want a pity party! I took that lesson to task and asked the creator on the Harvest Moon. A time when the vail between the worlds is thin. I trust the creator, but doesn’t mean I have to like the answer. I try to understand it. The answer was that I fulfilled my purpose as a parent into ascending their spirtual growth to their perspective levels in the upper dimensions. They did their part in my lessons into ascending to my level of spirituality on earth. As I mature I may not have done so if they were not in my life to test me. This was an agreement on the other side between us. They were my teachers there and on earth.
Trying to understand this thought I remembered reading a meme a few months ago about how when you lose a child, that you are at a very high spiritual level at this point in time and closest to the creator. The grief is so gut wrenching that you have nothing left to lose. This also means that the greatest and strongest power is within us to create. To have endless flows of energy. But i couldn’t see it at the time. As the fog and shell shock of grief starts to wear off, you start to create , write, draw, design, stitch fheal and many other wonderful things. I’m finding a sense of peace that knowing my children are in good hands and they are serving their purpose. I know they are around me all the time.
Now it is my turn to pay attention to the path and the direction I am going. I am free to do this now. Just have to give myself the permission to do so. I saw after I got that message last night that I have some marching orders. I was set free, thekids are ok. Doesn’t mean I’ll ever not miss them, I certainly love them. It means that it is out of my hands. It is my turn to be healed and then to heal. To heal through my arts and through my gift of healing. My soul has been hungry for a long time. Grief has taken a good part of the past 7 years of my life between my two beautiful sons. Time to feed her and not my body.
Many people have not comprehended the impact of the word. We have a choice. We create our own reality? We can either bless ourselves, or curse ourselves. This can be very empowering to us. Most of us are inherently good people. We want good experiences for ourselves. Positive outcomes can simply show up for ourselves by being conscious about what comes out of our mouths.
The spoken word is energy. Many of set our ourselves up for failure, then wonder what hit us. By using the words I can’t, shouldn’t, won’t, these are just a few.
We all have an opportunity to use the creative word energy to impact our lives. We CAN manifest what ever we want. Catch ourselves as we spew negativity from our mouths. We all do this and it is so unnecessary. Changing it instantaneously, can change our mood and behavior just as fast.
I challenge you to try just for a week. I always encourage to journal. Feel free to comment. Would love to hear from you!
I have most of our things prepared for the storm. This morning I woke to find that bit isn’t hitting the west coast of Florida. All models point going north. However, it is still a crapshoot.
I can’t take a moment of relief, a deep breath, because my grandchildren and many of my friends are living on another side of the state. Even if I didn’t know anyone that lives there. I know what it is like and know that…Now is the time to take to pray for anyone in its path. Please join me ❤
There is a hurricane coming! Meteorologist is in high gear on TV, and they are soooo excited! People all around are at the stores buying up all the water and supplies. Well, I can really freak out or not. First of all, they have no clue what direction it is going. I am watching all the people panic. Many Floridians already know this. Some still panic.
I check to see if I had batteries and all the things you need for the go-bag. I got food. I filled the water bottles. Which I have not developed the list yet. It is Thursday, It is not coming until Monday and that is if it hits here. Well ran out of batteries, ordered from Amazon, here by tomorrow. The task is done.
Worry makes us old! There are so many times we waste so much time with unnecessary anxiety. Don’t get me wrong, I lived through 2 horrifying experiences in 2004 with 10 each without electric. Not to mention the level 5 coming at us 5 years ago that didn’t hit our area that bad. I don’t want to go through this again. Yes, I am nervous. But we have time. I have the stuff in the house.
It is not hitting to Sunday, Monday or maybe Tuesday. So how many days are we going to put our body into turmoil? We do this to ourselves, not just through hurricanes. Anxiety is so harmful to us. We don’t need a pill. We can do this! It is important at this time to stop and pause, pace yourself, take a few deep breaths. Make your list. You just might be surprised that you already have most of the items and your go-to bag is full. If the hurricane doesn’t even come your way. You put yourself through an unnecessary unliving hell for nothing. Now Breathe!
I’ve been journaling for several years. In a matter of fact, I have over 25 years of journals just waiting to be sorted through.
Before I begin a notebook, I put what am I grateful for right on the front page. Over the years, things have changed. I see now that I’m older, things seemed so silly to me now. So unimportant. It is nice to go back and see this for yourself. it is very healing. Be creative! Use different color pens, sketch in there, use different types of paper. I use regular notebook paper with tear out perforation so I can tear it out and put it in a looseleaf notebook after.
You get to see how you managed to land on your feet, after a traumatic time. Oh, I had a lot of those! When you look back. You get to see how you had a part in it. How you can do things differently. Once your children grow older, you get to see that you put your own parents through hell, or maybe, you were not so bad after all! Each incident and journey is different. I never strived for perfection. Nothing is. But I always put my best foot forward. You are only fooling yourself if you think that you can be perfect.
Privacy can be an issue. If you are writing your journal in a document. Make it password protected.
Many times I find I open up a blank page. That is when I go to my page where I write where I am grateful. Other times I take a saying and let my feelings revolve around the topic. Sometimes. I really do amaze myself. I encourage you to pick up a pen and paper, or go to your computer and start writing out your journey. If you have not already started. I would love to hear from anyone on ideas about journaling.
I decided to change my desk around, originally because the A/C vent was freezing me out! My dear partner helped me move things around. I solved that situation. But what I also did was make room for my art supply caddy! There is also plenty of room to move my keyboard out of the way and take a sketch pad out.
I then turn my chair around and I’m at my design table. I’m a happy camper today! I find that as i reorganize my office, I’m finding the energy open up to create easier.
The past year, I have been having visions of drawing something. I don’t have the tools or the know-how to do what I saw. However, I have ordered all the types of pens and brushes I need. I’m going to go to learn something this week. The internet has unlimited resources to choose from. I’m ready to play!