I was told from my Astrology friends, that this full moon would be in Virgo and to use it to my advantage. Yes I’m a Virgo. I have spent most of this week. I have been in an decluttering. It was so cathartic to rip up all the paper. At the end of this week I am feeling so much more energized. It is amazing how much a difference it makes. Why fight it, if it brings some beneficial results. It is called life happens. It is moving past that what is stopping me, accepting it.
I have Attention Deficit. Approaching a project can be unapproachable. I’ll be frozen for days and months avoiding it totally choosing some fun stuff. Sometimes, I need someone to just sit with me. Not even do much. Just start me addressing the pile. I did have some one help me and what a blessing it was. Then they can walk away.
Last night after I cleared my closet and stuff all around my room. I also cleared my rocker so I can enjoy my book later that night. It was such a sense of peace in there without all the clutter. I so enjoyed my journaling. That is a sacred place for me. I haven’t been able to enjoy it. The clutter stifled my creativity. Once it cleared. I was writing pages! I invite you to join me.
This week I lost another good friend in the past week. It never gets easy. I find that since I lost my children. I walk another path. A path where my heart was ripped out. Each and every time another loss happens. It hurts a wee bit more.
Yes it hurts. Many people go into fight flight or frozen. Well freeze I do. I do apologize, for I don’t even attempt to sit at this computer until I heal my heart a bit. I have a point of reference, where that is now. My recovery time is so much sooner. This doesn’t mean that I loved less, cared less. it means…with each passing loving soul, I grew stronger. I take time to meditate more.
Take a breath…I take more deep breaths. When someone passes, it literally takes the wind out of your sails. it sets you back. But then the wind comes back and moves you onward. Then at that point you know that this beautiful energy that was your friend or your family member has translated into beautiful energy. Directed by Source towards a whole new purpose. Release with love, compassion, joy and grace…You will always be connected. Exhale.
We all have the capacity to shine and be the light. Sometimes along the walk of life there was someone that said to us, somehow…No not you! Whether it was a clergy, your parents, peer. Doesn’t matter. It sunk in and we found it difficult to fight that mind set. As you get older (you couldn’t tell me this at 20), you find that what you were told, wasn’t necessarily all true. You start to gather information, you pull it together and then realize. Wait a minute. That is not true.
We are humans, but we also are spiritual beings as well. I find the quicker we bounce back, the quicker we start to shine the light. Some circumstances are more difficult than others. They are lessons we must go through. When we arrive on the other side, we tend to have an ah hah moment. If not, we repeat. You got a life time to practice. However, quicker you learn, the easier you are able to stand on your feet, and move on.
Move on to what, you wonder. You move on in life. Even when you get older, you get a reprieve from daily strive. Then bam, a situation comes along for you to pay attention to. Or not. Maybe this one is not your circus. Maybe you have to sit back and let them follow through on their own. You are at this moment preparing yourself for what lies ahead. Maybe it is just rest. Maybe another lesson. No matter what comes across your pathway…always strive to shine through. Have a wonderful day!