Hello my friends. It has been a long time since I have posted. I have been on my own little journey. Little did I know what 2020 was ringing in for all of us! Back in December I went to my doctor only to end up with the Flu. Turns out he had it. It lasted about 3 weeks. I lost a bit of weight and decided to take charge of my health at that time.
I used this time in hybernation to my best advantage. I first made a pact with myself not to fall into the fear. Shut off the news. I did a lot of reading, a lot of crafting and decided to do a low carb food plan and do intermittent fasting. During this time I started to see results. I brought my diabetic A1C from 7.1 (December results) to now as of this past Thursday to 5.9% I lost 40 lbs and 30 inches all around. I actually lost 67 lbs if I count my worst weight (my doctor mentioned to count that because our cell memory does!)
What I found was when you start losing weight you start to shed layers of protection that you were covering up over the years. I developed a team. I had my endrocronologist and my therapist. I worked on my inner self to shed the years of distructive patterns.
There is a sense of grief when you start to lose weight. One loses much baggage at this point, not just fat. I lost all those stories I decided to hold onto. You know the ones. The ones we created when we ate another morsel of food through emotion. How terrible this and that are or how this one did this and that too us. Not to leave out our family members.
What I have gained is a sense of clarity. I noticed my gifts have gotten stronger. My intuition did not feel cloudy anymore. My healing energy felt great! Started working with it more.
I came to this computer several times and wanted to type. But, no not yet. I am different. I have lost the motivation over the years. Much of it was due to the loss of my children. Junk food was my drug of choice when I couldn’t cope with the idea that I lost both my sons. I know they are on either side of me and ready to go to task with me in what ever it is I decide to do. They are my strength when I feel that I can not make it another day.
My spirituality was always strong. But when you lose your children. It does challenge you big time. I have been helping other parents. There is no right or wrong when it you are there for someone. Just being there, you become a gift to each other. Unfortunately there is always a parent that lost a child. It is hard to navigate oneself through the emotions during the intial time frame of loss.
My head is not in the sand. I know what is going on, however, I am not giving power to the dark side. I’m not taking political sides. We are grieving the way we use to live. What we used to say and how we said it. This is not easy. But be kind to yourself.
I’m on the Creator’s side! I am holding the light for many to see. I turned 68 on September 6. 68 = 14 = 1 + 4 = 5. The number 5 is about change. That is what I am about. We are human. But we can catch ourselves when we see our selves going in the wrong direction. We do have choices. Remember the universe always agrees with us! If we say that everything is going bad. You will be right. However, if you ssay everything will be ok. You will be right again. The outcome is your choice.
I made some good choices this past year and I’m going to continue to keep making my life better. It just feels great! Come join me. Hugs