I have most of our things prepared for the storm. This morning I woke to find that bit isn’t hitting the west coast of Florida. All models point going north. However, it is still a crapshoot.
I can’t take a moment of relief, a deep breath, because my grandchildren and many of my friends are living on another side of the state. Even if I didn’t know anyone that lives there. I know what it is like and know that…Now is the time to take to pray for anyone in its path. Please join me ❤
There is a hurricane coming! Meteorologist is in high gear on TV, and they are soooo excited! People all around are at the stores buying up all the water and supplies. Well, I can really freak out or not. First of all, they have no clue what direction it is going. I am watching all the people panic. Many Floridians already know this. Some still panic.
I check to see if I had batteries and all the things you need for the go-bag. I got food. I filled the water bottles. Which I have not developed the list yet. It is Thursday, It is not coming until Monday and that is if it hits here. Well ran out of batteries, ordered from Amazon, here by tomorrow. The task is done.
Worry makes us old! There are so many times we waste so much time with unnecessary anxiety. Don’t get me wrong, I lived through 2 horrifying experiences in 2004 with 10 each without electric. Not to mention the level 5 coming at us 5 years ago that didn’t hit our area that bad. I don’t want to go through this again. Yes, I am nervous. But we have time. I have the stuff in the house.
It is not hitting to Sunday, Monday or maybe Tuesday. So how many days are we going to put our body into turmoil? We do this to ourselves, not just through hurricanes. Anxiety is so harmful to us. We don’t need a pill. We can do this! It is important at this time to stop and pause, pace yourself, take a few deep breaths. Make your list. You just might be surprised that you already have most of the items and your go-to bag is full. If the hurricane doesn’t even come your way. You put yourself through an unnecessary unliving hell for nothing. Now Breathe!
I’ve been journaling for several years. In a matter of fact, I have over 25 years of journals just waiting to be sorted through.
Before I begin a notebook, I put what am I grateful for right on the front page. Over the years, things have changed. I see now that I’m older, things seemed so silly to me now. So unimportant. It is nice to go back and see this for yourself. it is very healing. Be creative! Use different color pens, sketch in there, use different types of paper. I use regular notebook paper with tear out perforation so I can tear it out and put it in a looseleaf notebook after.
You get to see how you managed to land on your feet, after a traumatic time. Oh, I had a lot of those! When you look back. You get to see how you had a part in it. How you can do things differently. Once your children grow older, you get to see that you put your own parents through hell, or maybe, you were not so bad after all! Each incident and journey is different. I never strived for perfection. Nothing is. But I always put my best foot forward. You are only fooling yourself if you think that you can be perfect.
Privacy can be an issue. If you are writing your journal in a document. Make it password protected.
Many times I find I open up a blank page. That is when I go to my page where I write where I am grateful. Other times I take a saying and let my feelings revolve around the topic. Sometimes. I really do amaze myself. I encourage you to pick up a pen and paper, or go to your computer and start writing out your journey. If you have not already started. I would love to hear from anyone on ideas about journaling.
I decided to change my desk around, originally because the A/C vent was freezing me out! My dear partner helped me move things around. I solved that situation. But what I also did was make room for my art supply caddy! There is also plenty of room to move my keyboard out of the way and take a sketch pad out.
I then turn my chair around and I’m at my design table. I’m a happy camper today! I find that as i reorganize my office, I’m finding the energy open up to create easier.
The past year, I have been having visions of drawing something. I don’t have the tools or the know-how to do what I saw. However, I have ordered all the types of pens and brushes I need. I’m going to go to learn something this week. The internet has unlimited resources to choose from. I’m ready to play!
I don’t know about you…but I need this constant reminder. Because there are times I let myself down. I know I can create miracles like we all can! I’ll go into a pity party and even I don’t like me. So Out of nowhere, today I said I was going to come into the office and create. So I did! Sometimes I amaze myself. I’m being funny here.
The picture I added to this post is what I designed today. I am an earth sign and needed grounding. The color brown is all about being all-natural and organic. About security, stability, and support. I’m needing that today. There are not any precious stones on this piece. However, there is copper. It is a healing metal. It is a conductor of energy. Copper is linked to the divine and the Queen of Heaven.
When I want to empower all my existing power within. I pull a piece of jewelry or a crystal to speak to me. I just don’t design. I Chant and heal as I work on each piece. This is the power within What do you do in your life that enhances the power within?
I really like this quote today. I needed the reminder today. I worked my whole life and now in retirement. It is easy to slip into a comfortable mode. I really don’t want to totally be comfortable. There is always a need to strive for something wonderful.
What I’m striving for now is to help others who have just started their journey. I never claim to be an expert. However, I have been there and definitely bought the T-shirt. As a single parent, I have mastered the art of networking. It was a survival technique to get one through the day. If one source didn’t work, on to the next with no regrets. That is what made me tough and strong. I Mostly landing on my feet. If there was a block, I worked a little more. I have many accomplishments. That is what I hold onto. Because now with the loss of two children, I use that core of my accomplishments to hold me up daily.
I worked as a programmer in earlier years and then a contract executive assistant and technical writer. Mostly in a men’s world. Working the crazy hours, and still came home to be with the children to get them through their evening routine and to bed. Many women are still married and they find they have to do it alone too! The responsibility is mostly on their shoulders.
I’ve experienced that time when I was afraid to leave a relationship, but it dawned on me, that I was doing it all anyway. Many control freaks do a good job of trying to insist you are worthless. But oh no, not this one. Bye Felicia!
NOOOooooo, I do not want those crazy hours anymore. But I will not lose that drive, the motivation, to keep on going in a forward motion. I worked most of my life. You just don’t lose that identity. Your desire keeps your heart going and puts a nice smile on your face!
I had a rough day today. I had some good news and that is we paid off our house today. But then we had some bad news. Our car is messed up. The dealership knows it is Corporate problem but won’t acknowledge it. I looked it up on the car problems of the manufacture. I did what I could. But This overshadowed the happy news.
I noticed myself lashing out at my partner, I started going to take a nap and ended up with 3 phone calls. So that wasn’t going to happen. So I did what always makes me happy. WRITE!
I also did a few tutorials. It feels good to get myself out of the funk. Paying off a home, is good news. I am going to celebrate.