I had a rough day yesterday. I was watching the political hearing and thinking, if Allen was alive, we would have been on the phone discussing it. just made me miss him.
Today I decided to upgrade this blog and now have my domain name. Chayathewisdomkeeper.com. Feeling better about this.
I’m gind ing it is ok, to allow yourself a sad day, as long as you pick yourself up right away. Doesn’t mean your less strong, means you are having a moment. Tomorrow it will only be 2 months, for my older son, gone 6 yrs and 3 months. I know they don’t want me to wallow in sorrow. Today, is A NEW DAY, NEW ACCOMPLISHMENTS!
Mercury goes into retrograde next Tues, March 6. Since my sun sign is ruled by Mercury, sun sign too!. I have to play closer attention. I can sit and feel sad, which I have. I have a right. But need to take action. I have plans. I have not hit my design table for quite a while. Before my son passed anyway.
I spent a day over the weekend going through several articles and topics of information that I have saved over several decades. I have not worked with much of my healing toolbox. I feel a strong pull. That is why I decided to write a blog. I have studied with some interesting people and stood on the shoulders of giants. Time to pass my wisdom on. Some I wrote, some I didn’t. What I didn’t I give credit to.
I remember one thing that gets me moving is when I design. I work with natural beads. The beads heal me as I create. They calm me and I feel good. I sing and I chant. I put healing into the beads that I create as well. This will all good intention that whomever the piece finds will find much love and healing themselves. As I put the healing in with this intention. In return receive the love and return. Can’t go wrong.
Stay tuned for some new pieces. Also re-engineered! I just looked at what I have and going to break down and recreate! I plan on getting them on ETSY before the retrograde. I’m setting my goal right here! This will keep me busy!
Started my ETSY account today. What started being a gloomy day, turned out being quite productive! Yay!
There is not a source of not Well-being. There is not a source of sickness. There is just the disallowance of wellness. In every particle of the Universe there is that which is wanted and lack of it. — Abraham
For most part, I am doing ok. I put it in my mind that both my sons, are in Spirit’s hands. Then switch you holy sh#t, I lost my two only sons.
What I try to do is switch to writing, designing and focus on eating healthy for lowering my blood sugar. The key is getting off the couch.
It is a constant battle. For 3 days, I saw my self slip into sadness, forget to exercise, make unhealthy food choices, forget my vitamins…
My self talk starts, give yourself a break, it is less than 2 months and move to time to live, enough. The key is not staying in the deep depth of sadness too long, catch yourself. Put on a smile and remind yourself, you are going to be just fine.
Before one falls in love with another individual. It is important to fall in love with yourself unconditionally first. No one thing or person can fill that void.
This is nothing new news. It is about staying in tune with that love that is important. Because If we do. There is no reason anyone could disappoint us. Because Love does conquer all and especially negativity.
I really enjoy designing jewelry. What I found as I started that I really enjoyed working with natural stones and shells. I loved the feel of them as I worked with each piece. They gave me joy.
As a Reiki Master, I knew that the stones each have healing power. But I always wondered how could you prove something like that scientifically. One day I was looking through my crystal books and I found that each stone has a chemical compound. Of course, They are from the earth.
That wasn’t enough for me. So I discovered. If you wear a shell necklace that has calcium in it. What happens is your body soaks in the calcium from the shell it needs for your bones.
So many places you see that that there are stones that are for each chakra. The chakras are part of your energy system, Each Chakra points to a specific area of your body. Rose Quartz is good for your heart. Because the Rose Quartz comes from the earth it is energy and holds a vibration. Good one to vibrate to on Valentine’s day
So many of us have made plans, goals, and by the next day. They are forgotten. Distractions are brutal. How many have set out to take a regimen of vitamins, or exercise or a life plan for eating? Might do it for a few days, then forget the next.
I decided I’m not going to be hard on myself. I am just going to keep picking myself up and doing what I have to do. I already have seen the results of forgetting about myself. I want to live and enjoy life.
I have started going back to my training in time management. Have beeping going off all times of the day to remind me to exercise, eat the right foods and take my vitamins. Do other work I am wanting to do. When you check things off for the day and complete things. It creates energy. When you don’t it depletes it. You can take the item you did not do, and post it the next day, then check it off for today for completion. It is important that we see a sense of accomplishment. I invite anyone to just join me and post any thoughts on how you stay determined.
I have been functioning pretty decent when it comes to grieving. I have put my effort into learning about blogging and thinking about interesting things.
The death certificate came in for my son and the reality again set in of the fact that he is no longer here physically. No more laughter, and teasing and funny faces. I know he is in spirit. I have been doing auto writing and have held conversations with both my sons. I know they are in good hands with spirit. However, the finality of it hit me.
Before I got myself into a spiral downward I came to the desktop and started to write. This is so healing for me and I hope it helps others who are grieving. Because you have someone significant in your life pass on, doesn’t mean you have to die too. They want us to live. I’m choosing to do this. As I write this sometimes, I’m working on convincing myself. So far it is working!
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