Posted in Chaya's Journey, Insights

Spiritual Freedom

Good Morning, I was on a zoom meeting with some good people and we were talking about spiritual freedom. What does it mean to me. It is walking a path where I can co-creator with the highest and best. It doesn’t matter what you call this energy. Just as much as it doesn’t matter what anyone else does. Focusing on one’s inner self is what brings you closer to a place of peace. Doesn’t matter if I call the energy God, Goddess, Jesus, Buddah, Allah, He, She, Father Sky, Mother Earth or Saint Whatever!.

Many times I would get caught up in the semantics on what to call this energy. Realizing what really matters, is that I trust that it is this wonderful energy is working with me as I walk on my path. That energy is a part of the collective consciousness. So it can be called anything. Have I questioned it? Of course I have! I’ve had some rough roads through out this life time. Yes, I have had some decades to find this out. I knew I wasn’t alone. Everything ultimately turns out alright.

There are days I am right on target and sometimes not. It is important that to spend time during both circumstances speaking to spirit, so stand in gratitude. Honoring the time spent with me, in order to move forward. Building this trust helps when in middle of rough times that I am indeed not alone.

Posted in Chaya's Journey, Energy Healing, Overcoming Emotions

Believe the Good!

We all have some rough days. Especially during this time. We can choose to get swallowed up in it or shift your mind set, your consciousness to helping others. There is no energy sitting in your anger, stewing over things you can not change.

Step out of yourself and see what is around you that you can change. If you are stuck inside, work the internet spreading positive vibes to everyone. When all is said and done. You feel so much better that you didn’t get caught up is somethings you know that wouldn’t turn out too well. Sometimes I will write out paragraphs of anger, and erase it because I know that the results would not be in my favor.

I still believe that there is a good inside everyone. Believe me I’ve been tested. Many may not deserve it. I’m a better person for it. I still Keep doing it. The respond in a negative way it is their karma not mine. I’m finding my soul being so much more at peace. Closer you move towards the light, the lights will shine brighter on you.

Posted in Chaya's Journey, Self Determination

Find strength and stillness inside that storm

It is so important during these difficult times to look within yourself and find the strength and stillness and be the eye inside that storm. Because we are co-creator with spirit. Spirit just might be able to clue us in if we take time to listen.

I put this meme up on my computer wallpaper as a constant reminder. A reminder that everything around us, that includes politics, family dynamics and dysfunction, is just that around us. It is not happening to us. I am not responsible, if someone else is having a bad hair day. What I am responsible for is how I react to it.

Take that good deep breath and think before you respond.

Posted in Chaya's Journey

Happy Birthday to me! (I gifted myself with good health!)

Hello my friends. It has been a long time since I have posted. I have been on my own little journey. Little did I know what 2020 was ringing in for all of us! Back in December I went to my doctor only to end up with the Flu. Turns out he had it. It lasted about 3 weeks. I lost a bit of weight and decided to take charge of my health at that time.

I used this time in hybernation to my best advantage. I first made a pact with myself not to fall into the fear. Shut off the news. I did a lot of reading, a lot of crafting and decided to do a low carb food plan and do intermittent fasting. During this time I started to see results. I brought my diabetic A1C from 7.1 (December results) to now as of this past Thursday to 5.9% I lost 40 lbs and 30 inches all around. I actually lost 67 lbs if I count my worst weight (my doctor mentioned to count that because our cell memory does!)

What I found was when you start losing weight you start to shed layers of protection that you were covering up over the years. I developed a team. I had my endrocronologist and my therapist. I worked on my inner self to shed the years of distructive patterns.

There is a sense of grief when you start to lose weight. One loses much baggage at this point, not just fat. I lost all those stories I decided to hold onto. You know the ones. The ones we created when we ate another morsel of food through emotion. How terrible this and that are or how this one did this and that too us. Not to leave out our family members.

What I have gained is a sense of clarity. I noticed my gifts have gotten stronger. My intuition did not feel cloudy anymore. My healing energy felt great! Started working with it more.

I came to this computer several times and wanted to type. But, no not yet. I am different. I have lost the motivation over the years. Much of it was due to the loss of my children. Junk food was my drug of choice when I couldn’t cope with the idea that I lost both my sons. I know they are on either side of me and ready to go to task with me in what ever it is I decide to do. They are my strength when I feel that I can not make it another day.

My spirituality was always strong. But when you lose your children. It does challenge you big time. I have been helping other parents. There is no right or wrong when it you are there for someone. Just being there, you become a gift to each other. Unfortunately there is always a parent that lost a child. It is hard to navigate oneself through the emotions during the intial time frame of loss.

My head is not in the sand. I know what is going on, however, I am not giving power to the dark side. I’m not taking political sides. We are grieving the way we use to live. What we used to say and how we said it. This is not easy. But be kind to yourself.

I’m on the Creator’s side! I am holding the light for many to see. I turned 68 on September 6. 68 = 14 = 1 + 4 = 5. The number 5 is about change. That is what I am about. We are human. But we can catch ourselves when we see our selves going in the wrong direction. We do have choices. Remember the universe always agrees with us! If we say that everything is going bad. You will be right. However, if you ssay everything will be ok. You will be right again. The outcome is your choice.

I made some good choices this past year and I’m going to continue to keep making my life better. It just feels great! Come join me. Hugs

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Because everyone matters!

I am not going to apologize for saying Happy Holidays, because I like to include everyone. There are so many different holidays during this winter season. People already feel separate and not included. This time of year is hard for many people. Why not make someone feel that they were truly thought of.

Happy Holidays!!!

Posted in Chaya's Journey, Uncategorized

Here is Onyx

My Halloween Cat! She is about 8 weeks old. That works out around Halloween. I found her 2 weeks ago under my house, crying and hungry and cold. No other cats around her We brought her in the house and she is now ours.

She’s making my heart sign during this difficult time of year for me.

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Just Breathe

I can go for plenty of days and not a darn thing gets done. So unproductive of me. I took the time this morning to go within and meditate. A good amount of time. What a difference. I had more energy and a better attitude. I have said to myself no it doesn’t… but I feel so much better. I feel connected. I want to do things. I have a clearer vision.

When I first meditated I had all these questions. First, am I doing it right? Well just close your eyes and take a deep breath and you’re on your way. It isn’t rocket science. I thought it was years back. Do I need a mantra? Yes, you do if you are doing transcendental meditation. There was someone who told me I was doing it wrong because I didn’t do it their way. I am so done with that way of thinking! I do it my way!

I was in a class where everyone sat on the floor so , I thought I couldn’t meditate if I couldn’t do that and sit crosslegged! I can’t do that! So I asked for a chair. When I am home I just lay down in bed. Sit down at the base of tree! Be consistent in doing meditation. No matter how you choose to practice. I feel the key was just to do it. Clear your mind. Chanting a sound…this will distract you from all the mind chatter. Try just sounding out the vowels a,e,i,o and u. they will also clear your chakras. Take in some good deep breaths and that is all there is to it. Try to journal your thoughts afterward. It helps!

Posted in Chaya's Journey, Grieving Naturally, Uncategorized

I miss you, Brett

December 17, 1986 to December 5, 2012

There have been 7 years since you have passed. Not a day goes by when I don’t think about you. I miss you so much. I know you are watching over us. You had a heart of gold. You were a great dad! Always a good kid and joking and very loving! You now have your brother in heaven to keep you company and causing mischief! You are gone but never forgotten my dear son.

Posted in Chaya's Journey, Insights, Self Determination

The Self is Dangerous

My instinct was to change the gender on the above quote. But then it wouldn’t be a quote!

It has been a month now since just one more friend left me. This one didn’t like my way of thinking after taking years and many hours of my time, that I know that we both enjoyed. We supported each other, checked in on each other and in one night. it was a two way street. Then poof she flipped a switch out of no where. It certainly something that had nothing to do with me. People can certainly take time in life to retrospect, but no need to try destroy people in order to push them away. In the past I would have owned what is not mine. But I can see in this year along. I so clearly see this is not my circus. I sending only healing light her way.

Since I was a little girl, I never really felt I fit in with the regiment of religion or groups. I seemed to have run into the types that love to want to control. When they realize they can’t… they go in a major destruction mode. I’ve seen this pattern. I may fall a little bit, because I didn’t realize what hit me! I get up fast and I get stronger! There is always the person that said I didn’t get up fast enough. I have strong faith and there was always an instictual twinge within me saying….Nah! I always beat to my own drum. Everytime I go against my grain and try to fit in, I am the one that pays the price. As I got older, I really get tired of the trying. It is about taking advantage of my kindness…then using it against me. Some said along the way if they were me they would do it better. But guess what they are not me and it did what works for me. May not get done as fast as one would like. The end result was the main thing.

This doesn’t mean that I should isolate, or be mean to people. It means spend more quality time with me. Reflect, speak and listen to spirt. As I keep speaking my truth, I step into my truth. All the things people wanted of me, droped by your wayside, it simply didn’t fit! Just maybe all those years I’ve been feeding my emotions so I can fit in places that I really didn’t want to be. Did society really require my attendance? I just didn’t need to be there. Each second, moment and day is a new beginning to start fresh. If by me living by my own integrity is shining my light to bright. So be it.